FALLS APART...

These lyrics are by Sugar Ray. So kristin (if you read this... I hope you enjoy it). Today was a good day. Lots to do, but it was very much NOT focused on me, which is a great thing. Had class, babysat, studied, and then went outside with Leigh-Ann and then Lindsay and Nan came over, and we had out Wednesday night prayer. I really hope Lindsay decides to keep coming! Other than that, something just hasn't been right lately. Can't put a finger on it, but it's there just the same. It's like I've been pretending, or putting on a show w/my friends. Trying to be funny, and yeah it's so fun... but I can't be showy anymore. Somewhere in the past few weeks I lost myself and don't know where it went. When I'm with people, I can be that person, but when alone, I don't feel it anymore. So, I downloaded this song and it seems to sum up everything:

She falls apart by herself, No ones there to talk or understand

Feels sustained, dries here eyes

Finds herself, opens the door inside

People see right through you, Everyone who knew you well

Falls apart, might as well Day is long and nothing is wasteful

Runaway runaway runaway runaway...

All those words that hurt you, More than you would let it show

Comes apart, by yourself

All is well and everything is wasted

Runaway runaway runaway runaway

So that is basically it in a nutshell. It's only part of the song, but yeah, it's applicable. So here is the prayer: Daddy (name used by Nan that is awesome), I try to make my life my own, but it's yours. Take my mind and transform it, take my will and conform it to yours Lord. Everything should be for your glory. Father, this life is yours, you gave it to me and I give it back to you. Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Thank you father for breaking this pride that rises up so easily. If it will glorify you more, break me more Jesus. Break me to the point where I was last year where there was nothing but you! I raise my Ebenezer to you, because you are the Rock! Lord, it is not possible for me to break myself, so I am praying to you to break and humble me for your names sake. Thank you Lord.

So, another week has begun. Monday, went to some classes, and wondered where Jeanne (the latest hurricane they've predicted would hit us that didn't) was. Then Monday night I went to BCM, and it was really great. Stephen spoke for the first time. Afterwards, I was bored so Nan and I drove and sat at the battery and hung out. The waves were so big though that we kept getting splashed. However, these guys just pulled over and were like "is that your civic?" and i'm like "um yea" and they are like "is it for sale" and i'm like "it could be" and they said they race hatchbacks and need another one. So, if I make an offer then can pretty much guarantee it because it's in demand. Also, the reasons that I didn't want to sell it here are that it's a 5-speed w/no ac. But they want a 5-speed and ac would just slow them down. So it's perfect. Today is Tuesday and it was basically like any other, class, work, class, homework, sleeping during homework. However, Nan and I ran a little over 6 miles. We ran to the Citadel, got there, saw Scott (yeah! which was totally on accident) and "ran/walked" back. Later, Nan used my place to study, but I think she really just talked to Michael the whole time, which is cool, bc he is such a great guy. And I love how they are both going slowly with whatever is going on. Then we studied and such and went to MM to hear some music. Basically,

Weekend Excursions

Saturday: gesh, where is the time flying to? Saturday I slept in, then went to work from 12-6. It was so busy, but its cool cause I got over 40 bucks in tips, which is always a perk! :) Then Leigh-Ann came and we went shopping. On the way home we called Cassi and Nan and decided we were going to see WIMBELDON (Great movie!!!). So we picked up Nan and she did her fun techno dance moves in my apartment. Whoa, she learned a lot more than just WO AI NI and WEI (sp) in Tawian. But it's all good. So, after the movie, we went to George's, a sports bar in West Ashley, because it was Michael's 21st bday and Nan had to give him a card. Whoa, his roommate Scott... that's a wonderful vision to behold. And he was a funny guy too. Maybe we can convince him to come to church?!?! haha. Anyway, afterwards we (the girls) went and sat at the battery talking until like 1:30. good times.
Sunday: Got up after like 5 hours of sleep, never enough for me, and went to Sunday School. Then church, where Tyler finally showed up. The slacker overslept and missed Sunday School. Then we all went over to Judy's house for lunch. But... Nan had to go back downtown to get a form, so it was Michael driving w/Lauren and Tyler and I. I could get us to Sam Rittenburg and Michael could get us to the house from there, but that was no easy task. We probably made at least 3 u-turns. Oh well. It was worth it for the amazing pasta. It was also funny to listen to the knobs (plebe wanabees) talking about how easy it is. Came back, napped, ran in the rain along the battery. Did some hw and laundry, oh oh and homework. So basically it was an amazing weekend here in Charleston.
Also, if you could pray for my friends and I as we all are in the process of growing and struggling w/guys and such. Pray that we can just follow Jesus' will and continually seek Him out. That we will not loose focus of Christ and become solely focused on guys, and such :) This is such a tough thing for people our age, that we must make a conscious effort to search out God's will for our lives in this area, because He knows who that person is. As the sermon said today, "pray specifically" for things, and I'm adding, "pray specifically for this area"!!

Naptowner84: O:-) (the angel face on aim)
McElhaneySassy: LOL...thats just unbelievable christy

FRIDAY!!!
Went to class this morning, skipped Linear and Karen, Leigh-Ann and I watched Moulin Rouge. It was such a great movie. Then I worked, and as per usual, Nan, LA and Cassi came, only when I got off poor Cassi's car had been booted, so we all had to pay to unboot it.
I have to thank you (you know who you are) for listening tonight. I've been having a really hard time with something lately and didn't really even realize that it was my problem until tonight. I understand completely that Charleston, though my home, still has a lot of racial inequality. It's kind of hitting me lately how much of it there is. I didn't even notice it much last year, well I did, but not like recently. I grew up being taught that everyone was the same, and most people here just weren't raised like that. It's just a fact. My friend Shawn used to always say that he was black and I was white and we would joke about it a lot. So one day I put a black sheet of paper up against him and a white one up against me and was like, see neither of us match the sheets of paper. I guess that is just how my mind works. Yes, I do see the difference, but I don't think it necessarily matters so much. Maybe it's trite to say it's what's on the inside that matters, but isnt that true... at least to some extent? It's not like my endeavor here is to change the world, or even anyone. Just I guess what is happening is that remarks that seem racial leave a pungent taste in my mouth. I hear them, even if it was just a passing comment, it stays with me. I'm like "did they just say that?" and I know it's how people were raised here. So, yeah, it upsets me when people say things like that, a lot, but I also know that to them it's normal. But does that make it right? It doesn't mean I love anyone less, it's just difficult for me to hear it and not be shocked. Guess I'm just a product of my society! haha jk jk whoa, that was a deep entry, but as Nan and Leigh-Ann always say "WO AI NI"

Great Day

Today was a really good day. Went to anthropology, which is becoming really interesting, then tutored a guy in stats for an hour and a 1/2, then went to abstract math. But that was just normal. Then I proceeded to go to marion square and lay out for 2 hours (maybe that will help my floundering tan!) . However, when leaving, my bike tired had popped so I had to go get it replaced and walk home to get money! Refixed the pedal on my car, did homework and decided to run. Ran all the way to the end of the battery and back, it was like a 30 min run which felt really good. Came back, ate dinner, tried some more hw and then read Karen's livejournal. Somehow I felt the need to call her, and we ended up at the battery talking for hours. It felt really great. It's almost as if life here is so great, but she was missing from it. It didn't seems right w/out her. And though I wouldnt trade my new friends for anything because I LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANYTHING, it's really great to have her too! And yea for skipping Linear Algebra to go to the beach tomorrow. Ok time for sleep!

Whoa, 3 entries in 1 day, what is going on? But I just have a lot to say and a lot on my mind today. But I just wanted to mention how amazing my friends are here. It is such a wonderful gift from my Lord to have friends that are earnestly seeking after Him as well. Though we all struggle w/school and life and boys and everything else, and we all want to stray, it's awesome to know that someone is there praying for you and loving you with the heart of Christ. Nan had the idea that we all get together once a week to pray together, and I really hope we pray like we did that one night all outloud together. It was the coolest thing ever. How many people are priviledged enough to be sitting in a room, all talking to Jesus Christ outloud, at the same time? Nan suggested it bc it's what she did in Tawain, and if that was the only thing she learned there, which it isn't, then just that to me was worth her trip! :)
Speaking of prayer: I've been trying to study Judges. You know how we all go through periods of stronger faith than others? Of seaking but not knowing what to do? I think that's what this book is all about. When trials are great, or they are being persecuted they cry out "Father save us from this oppression", but when life is good, they are sustaining themselves (which we all want to be self-sufficient) they go back to their Ashera poles and marrying into the other tribes. I don't know about you, but I definitely go back and forth between praising my Savior and worshiping my "Ashera" poles, and it's so horrible. So, should I really want to be self-sufficient? That answer has become really clear... NO! Not only do I need to rely more and trust more in Jesus and study His Word more, but I need people to keep me accountable. So praise to the Lord for providing everything that I didn't think I needed to rely on Him!

For Karen:

In meeting again after a separation, acquaintances ask after our outward life, friends after our inner life.

- Marie Von Ebner-Eschenbach

Your friendship meant and still means so much to me. Without you, I would not be here still. Though I love everyone here so much, it seems different with you. Do you feel that way too sometimes? We don't necessarily know the current events of eachothers lives at any given moment, but you know me, and I know you. Under the facades and falsities of life, the core...! That's such a cool thing. I guess that is where the quote is applicable. You shared the Cameroon part of yourself w/me, and I love being the one who knows your stories and can picture your life there, even if you did spend a lot of time naked there! (ack) And yes being back in the "saddle" is nice. So, thats the blog for you!!

For Karen:

Favorite Christian Praise Song.

So, yeah I know this is from middle school, but it's been stuck in my head all day. I've been trying to download it, and can't find it anywhere. so here it is, SHOUT OUT THE OO OO's!!

Praise The Lord (Blessed Be)

Praise the Lord, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. (echo)
His steadfast love endures forever, and he is good.
We will tell the mighty deeds of the Lord,
And show forth all of His praise, Allelujah!

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel
From everlasting to everlasting...
Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel
From everlasting to everlasting!

Let all God's people say Amen ... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen, OH praise the Lord!

OOH OOOH

OOH OOOH

Gather us, O Lord our God, From among the nations (echo)

Deliver us and save us, O God, God of our salvation (echo)

So that we may give thanks to Thy holy name

And glory in Thy praise Alleluia!

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel

From everlasting to everlasting

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel

From everlasting to everlasting!

Let all God's people say Amen... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen, OOO praise the Lord!

OOH OOOH

OOH OOH
OOOOOOOOH

Yet another weekend is over... I spent friday working from 6-midnight. Nan, as per usual came in and brought people in w/her. Then we got into my car, w/Antonio (maybe) and Michael and had to race to get them back to the Citadel by 1. Once we got them there, we were driving down Calhoun towards 17 and called Leigh-Ann who was w/Suzy. We were like "follow us to get ice cream, we're waiting in the construction area for you" haha bad idea. The next thing I know, Nan is like "theres a man next to us" and there really was. A creapy sketchy man was walking right next to my car, so I gunned it trying to get away, only there was a car next to us and we couldnt go, it was so funny, maybe ya had to be there. Then we couldnt find any ice cream places open at 1am, go figure, so we went to the 24 hour Kripsy Kreme drive thru, and you know what, we drove around it 5X's and no one would give us a stupid dounut. Saturday I worked from 12-6, got off, went w/Nan to her Sunday School teachers house (oh and Lucy came!!!!) to watch a movie. Got there, watched like 6 Citadel guys try to move a sofa (yeah they were struggling) and then we "watched" Hidalgo... worst movie ever. Afterwards we went to Waterfront part and talked, and Leigh-Ann, Cassi and Suzy and her "boy" joined us, and after 12 the police came and told us and everyone else there that the park was closed, so we left. Sunday went to church at Ashley River, had some Red Lobster, did homework in the park outside my apartment w/LA, watched some Titanic on tv, drove to nowhere w/Nan and LA. Fun, fast weekend. Not so ready for classes to start, but on well. It's 11:15 and since I've only been getting like 6 hours of sleep this weekend as compared to my normal 8-10 (yes, I do love to sleep) its time to go crash! night world

Unexpected times...

I'm not really sure what's been going on in my head lately. I took a risk, a risk that has been coming forever, and apparently it isn't going to work out how I had envisioned. However, that isn't killing me. Though I really wanted it, it is really amazing to just have verbalized how I feel, and now, since it isn't returned I guess it really is time to move on. Though it's a weird sensation, it's good to move beyond. You said you were willing to give it a shot, maybe you were just appeasing me, who knows. But I am taking the fact that you cant pin down a time or take the effort to talk to me as your not wanting this to happen, and if that's wrong, at this point you will need to flat out tell me. I will not sit and wait for you to make up your mind forever. Now or never, is what I said and it's what I meant. So I gues you'd rather have never. Honesty is so much better than trying to "save" someone.

This is a random Bbmak song, yeah I know they're from back in the day, but what can ya do?

I want to show you even though there are no guarantees

Just let me hold you love can do most anything

If you just believe

It can take you to the highest high

Make you sacrifice it all. Love is unpredictable

It can change your life forever or it may never hear your call

Love is unpredictable

We don't need to justify, we don't need to wait

All will be revealed to us in time

And if you intellectualize the meaning of this fate

You may never know what we could find

Don't keep me waiting Don't you keep me hanging on the line

I'm only saying You won't know what love can do, if you never try

So yeah, thats part of the song. Love is unpredictable, yes I think that resonates w/me right now. Who would have though I could be bold like that? It's terrifying to put yourself out, but I think it's worth it, worth all of it.

So last night, haha after BCM Leigh-Ann, Nan and I went to sonic... but my drink wouldnt cooperate. Stupid rootbeer float wouldnt stay in the cup, but rather kept (and I mean more than once) spilling all over my jeans. Actually it was really funny, but now my jeans are all sticky.

ps- brice, I am mentioning you in here, like you say I never do, so now you cant say that I dont mention you.

Cold n Wet in the library

Hey, So it decided so it decided to monsoon in Charleston again. However, this time it was when I had to go to class. Woke up, still feeling sick right... Well my weatherbug said it was going to be about 75 out with 20-30mph winds gusting around 40mph. What the heck, didnt the hurricane miss us? So off I go, w/my lil navy warm up jacket, a backpack and a bicycle drudging through the flooded Charleston streets. I always laugh at people who get splashed on, bc sometimes its funny, if the person is wearing stilettos and a mini skirt w/a tiny white shirt while its pouring down rain. However, no only were the streets flooded but I got puddled a few times, and 1 car even puddled me 2x's. arg. Luckily I dont have much homework and can sit and watch a movie and curl up w/a blanket and maybe some hot chocolate. Ok must stop writing like that, bc it's making me want it really bad. time for my last class...

Even though I had to work Fri and Sat 6-Midnight, this has been a really great weekend. Actually, its been a really great week. Friday: Had some classes, finally got to sit down with Karen. I dono what she thinks, but I thought it went so well. Just seemed normal. Hanging out w/the Karen that I love, and yes I do still love you Karen. It just calmed me and from the beginning seemed simple despite everything. Praise God that He could just bring such peace to that relationship! Then I worked and all my friends came to chill. However, Nan and Leigh-Ann stayed til we closed and went to sonic. Then we decided to have a sleep over (what a 4th grade term) but after LA had a hard convo w/Shrek Nan had us pray like she did in Taiwan. The three of us all prayed at one time, so it wasnt hard to pray out loud. It was really cool to be sitting in a room w/some of my best friends just Praising God and talking to Him together. Then everyone came down here and we went to bed around 3:30 after LA scared Nan while she was looking for Vick's Vapor Rub and Nan fell into the tub. Saturday: We woke up and I made pancakes, then we picked up Dena and went to the beach. The waves were huge because of the Hurricane in FL and the currents very dangerous. Well, we were trying to boogie board and avoid the waves, but LA missed and her legs and arms are all cut up. She looks like she got amazing Surfing wounds, or at least thats the story we're all sticking too!
Ok well it's 1AM, and church is in the AM, so I should prolly sleep soon... Stay up talking to Keith or go to bed? I dono...

Today has been a really strange day.
1. Got a call this morning from the Florist and guess what? Keith sent me flowers. How sweet is that? Yeah, it was so fun. All day in class, I kept thinking that flowers were coming, and they are really pretty. What a thoughtful guy. It's a gesture that most guys wouldnt think of doing.

2. I was at waterfront, studying and this guy sits next to me and is like "do you have a boyfriend?" and I'm like "yes" and he just sits and keeps talking to me for like 30 min, and is like "do you have single friends?" and again I was like "yes" and so I'm going back to the park tomorrow w/my single friends for him. haha

yeah, those were the events that happened today that seem kinda unusual. Yeah. Ok maybe I should try to do homework.
Ok well, now that my homework is done... Tomorrow I meet w/Karen E. And for all you that know that situation, I'm very excited. It's a cool place to be in, bc all that anger of last semester and all that hurt, its gone. And that has to be a God-thing, bc no way I could just not be angry anymore, its not me. Surprisingly not worried at it at all. She said she has stuff she needs to say or something, which is fine, bc I'm not gonna get upset. Just pray about it ahead of time, and see what happens. At the very least, maybe it will help her heal if she's not there yet. And I'm proud of her for doing this. She never has sticken me as someone who can deal w/confrontation straight on (and thats not a put down, it's just how it is) and I'm glad she's finally doing that. Not that tomorrow will be confrontational, but rather that maybe, just maybe we can get back a piece of what we had.

Something More (Augustine's Confession) By Switchfoot

I've been really complacent lately. Not really following Jesus, reading the Word, or having passion about anything that I know I should be longing and striving for. So, I decided to play switchfoot the other day, and this song resonated within me. It's St. Augustine's Confession, but I want it to be my confession:

Augustine just woke up with a broken heart

All this time he's never been awake before

At 31 his whole world is a question mark

All this time he's never been awake before

Watching dreams that he once had feed the flame inside his head

In a quiet desperation of the emptiness He says:

Chorus: "Theres gotta be something more

Than what I'm living for. I'm crying out to you" (2x)

Augustine, All his fears keeping falling out

All this time he's never been awake before

Finding out his old dreams aren't panning out

All this time he's never been awake before

But he's mad to be alive and he's dying to be met

In a quiet desperation of the emptiness He says:

Chorus

Something more

Hey, I give it all away

Nothing I was holding back remains

Hey, I give it all away

Looking for the grace of God today

Insanity

Whoa, it's Semptember 1 already! So, haha I slept through my first day of math lab tutoring. Oops. Oh well, what are ya gonna do. Let's see... My classes are going well. Abstract math is so well, abstract, I am not sure whats going on already! :) Well, it was fine until yesterday. We had a tropical storm on Sunday (Gaston) and Nan put this up, so I think everyone needs to read it: Fun things to do when a hurricane comes:

1. Go to the beach with Christy and Leigh-Ann at 1 AM... an hour before it hits land and becomes a big threat.

2. At 11:00, get in Leigh-Ann's SUV with her and Christy, and go in search of an open fast food restaurant. (Knocking on the drive-thru windows don't help!)

3. Go Puddling... lol...

4. Try to find every flooded street in Downtown Charleston and drive over bridges...

5. Make a pact to go to Pawley's Island when the next hurricane comes!

And apparently another BIG ONE is coming this weekend. Frances. They say its a category 4, almost a 5, and should make land around FL/GA which means we'll get big winds too. School is even thinking about cancelling for Monday! YEAH! So the evactuation plans... haha go to the beach and watch it roll up, then get out. It has been the rainiest few days here in Charleston. Whats going on? I've basically been doing nothing for a lil bit now. so maybe I should amend that. ok, have a good day whoever is reading this.

Ok so i wrote the whole thing about what I've been upto lately w/classes and such but blogger deleted it somehow. so any questions, ask! :)

It's been a week since I last wrote, so maybe it's time to write. My time at home in Annapolis is quickly drawing to a close. Saying goodbye to friends again, man it sucks. Katie, I hate going months on end w/out hanging out w/you like we do all summer! Yeah for Brian's graduation and your coming to stay at my place, btw thanks for inviting yourself. It's crazy how completely comfortable I can be around you! Thanks for all the awesome times and all those coming still! It's almost Thursday. I can't believe it. Leaving home on Saturday again, another year. Where did the summer go? I swear I just drove home from SC after the year ended. Oh well. My puppies won't be so close... and I do love them so. And classes, can I tell you how much I am NOT looking forward to 3 math classes, a science and anthropology? Oh yes, HERE I COME! Ok well time to go, dad just got home!

Things that should be said more...

I know you read this, so this is for you. I'm still not sure how it happened, but it did and it's really great. I was hesitant at first, but you weren't. You make me laugh and yet didn't laugh at me when I ran into the car's rearview mirror today while walking. I hadn't even thought this was a possibility, but under that friendship is something awesome. I'm not one who easily expresses myself, but just wanted to take a moment to thank you for this summer. It's been filled w/car rides through back neighborhoods and neighborhoods w/unexpected speed humps, movies, dinners and walks through the woods and the most beautiful pier ever. And maybe the best part of it all, is that it's simple. Does it feel simple to you? Being around you is fun and easy. Hey, yawning happens! So, I haven't told you enough how great you are and how I'm looking forward to the roadtrips and hanging out w/our "interesting" friends from school. Yeah, we both know the person from your school and the one from mine that I'm talking about. :) So, Thank you.
Ps- have words become superfluous yet? Because I'm thinking maybe so :)

SEETHER LYRICS "broken"

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome & I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away'

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away You don't feel me here anymore

Well hello,
I'm listening to Sublime right now, and its making me happy. Thanks Keith. Do you like the Ben Folds mix?!? So, it's been a good week. Working at AACS, standing on 12ft ladders w/20 ft extensions on the paint rollers! Good times in the gym on friday! Friday, Kristi K and I hung out and then Kate W showed up. So fun. Had a "run in" w/my next door neighbor about her stupid party and not letting me park my car anywhere near home. Oh well. Then saturday was Katie's 20th bday. Interesting party in the cold, but good memories remembered. Oh Katie and your amazing ability to fall over. Today, I napped, as per usual. Jen, the shirt you gave me, its so great. I really love it. Then Keith came home and came over and we had icecream (homemade) w/my parents and played checkers... so woulda won that last game had you not cheated and jumped all my pieces :) I can't believe you're leaving for school Friday. It seems like we just started having fun you know? Ok, cya

Vacation To Charleston!

Been home from Charleston for about 2.5 hours now. What an awesome trip. Katie and I drove down on Thursday and then went to Kickin Chicken and Sonic... yum. Then, we packed up some of my apartment. Friday, we went to the beach w/Leigh-Ann where the waves were at least 7 ft. no joke! Friday night, hmm, what did we do? I think we drove around for boxes, and I even climbed into a dumpester to grab some! Saturday was spent moving and then Katie and I were out of it, we just laid on the floor. Apparently we called manda, and neither of us remember much of that convo! :) Then saturday night, my parents took us to dinner at California Dreamin where we ate outside, so nice! Sunday, we got Bojangles before church, then I think we walked all over town, bought this awesome cd stand thats not suitable for tvs but has my tv on it anyway and watched my parents hang curtains. Monday... did we shop katie? Why cant I remember!? haha. Tuesday, we went to the less wavy end of Folly bc I killed my knee and almost died being caught in a rip-tide and katie fell into a big hole in the water :( ! (no for real!!!) Also, we shopped, and K got this awesome Southern Yankee Cowgirl hat, as she calls it! However, Leigh-Ann and I rented a jet-ski near the pier at Folly and it was so fun. Just as we got away from the shore, we flipped! Haha, then we road for like 15 min, almost dying every 2 seconds bc i was driving and couldnt see. But, we almost flipped again and yelled "we're gonna flip" and so Leigh-Ann just jumped off, pulling me with her. Yet, the jet-ski didnt flip at all. Oh gesh! Well, thats it kinda. YEAH! ps- the apartment is awesome, come visit!!!

Tomorrow morning I leave for Charleston to move to Sergeant Jasper... 8A!  However, I'm so apprehensive.  Daisy has not really improved.  Yeah she walks a little, but she falls more often than not.  She's got doggy depression.  Right now she's laying down looking up at me and her hind legs are shaking.  I love her more than anything in life.  She's my Daisy-Mae, my Beagle!  We've been close for 10 years.  Even though she's crazy scared of new people, she trusts me to make things better, she's crafty and smart.  I want to make it all better for her.  Take away her hurt, but I want her to get better.  Because she's 11, we cant opperate on her to fix it, we just have to pray that she improves.  However, if she doesn't mom said it's my decision to put her to sleep and that it's not fair to have her live like this if she doesn't improve.  How can I make a choice like that?  In spite of my love, it's not fair for her to be like this.  When that time comes, which it will eventually, even if its not from this, I don't know how I will handle it.  Daisy is my true friend even if she's just a dog... she's this woman's best friend!  Daisy-Mae, I love you!!

So, a few stressful things have happened recently.  My grandfather went into the hospital Thursday and was released today.  However, they kept giving him morphine which made him say some crazy things about cages and such.  It freaked me out to a degree.  As of today, I am the saddest girl though.  My beagle (Daisy, my favorite dog!) hurt herself getting out of my car yesterday when we got back from the vet.  Well, she was walking badly, then stopped waling all together.  So, my parents post-poned their trip to SC today and took her to the vet only to discover that one of her vertebrae is ruptured or something, so they synapse from her brain telling her hind-legs to move are connecting.  Hopefully she will improve this week, as she seems to be slowly doing.  If her disk slips more though, she will become paralyzed and then have to be put to sleep bc they vet won't operate on a dog that's 11 years old.  :( 
On a better note...  My job is so amazing.  Friday we had nothing to do, so we all played hangman and napped (ok, I napped while everyone else watched the paint dry!).  Monday, we had to spray 15 cans of Kilz (primer) on the walls of a non-ventilated hallway in the Lower School and everyone go really high.  After work was over, our noses were filled w/the white stuff (yuck) and there were 20 min breathing breaks every 5 min to allow us to take full-sized breaths.  Thursday, Katie and I are driving down to Charleston to move me into Sergeant Jasper and to go to the beach of course!  Yeah!  Also, the Bourne Supremacy, yeah its a good movie except for the camera shaking!  I must admit it was really fun to get Keith to buy tickets to another movie and sneak into the Bourne Supremacy bc it was sold out.  BTW- he was the only person I know who understood Big Fish from the beginning... 3 cool points for you for that!  Maybe that's enough of an update for now. 

Week in review

Whoa, I'm so confused, BLOGGER seems to have updated itself and now I can type in colors and new fonts!  Way cool!  Ok, so I know you all are so excited to hear about my week...

Last week I started working at AACS.  Though it could have been really weird to be back there for long periods of time, it has actually turned out really amazingly.  A bunch of people I know are there and I get to catch up w/them daily.  Painting is actually fun!  Who knew!?!?  Then Monday, as a group, we all went to see Dodgeball and Keith came along.  Then Wednesday, I had to lock myself in to study for the CALC 3 final exam.  Well, sweetest thing ever, Keith surprised me with a GIANT icecream sandwich, which he called Jen to find out that I'd like!  Major Props there!  Test went well!  Then Friday was "meet the family night"  and I dono what you think Keith, but I hope it went well!  I def liked the flowers and the walk at the club and to the pier, even if the lightening bug freaked me out like none-other.  Since then, I've just kinda been around.  Chilaxing.  Ok, time to go, not much eventful happened this week apparently.  Talk to ya'll later

I had the greatest weekend! Kristi and Leigh-Ann drove all the way up to Naptown to chill w/me! So cool of them. They got here on Thursday and we meet Katie to go mid-hunting and then Keith joined us downtown for icecream. It was so amazing to have them here. Friday we went to DC and got so lost, but we got stopped on the side of the road by what we thought was the President and his men (sorry, Katie said he was in PA!). Kristi really wanted to go to the museums so we did that and drove by the Lincoln Memorial quite a few times. Friday night we went to Cantlers where Katie and I ate a dozen delicious crabs... and Kristi and Leigh-Ann ordered hamburgers. Who gets hamburgers at Cantlers. gesh a whip! However, Kristi did try a few claws and managed to hit the lady behind her w/the crab claw. So funny, but so proud of her for trying! Then we got some good ol' Ritas! SO YUMMY!!!! Saturday we had lunch at Chick & Ruths and then came home and relaxed. Then at night, we picked up Keith and went to Bmore. Kristi informed me that Bmore is the location of the Boston Tea Party and the Chicago Fire... guess I learn something new everyday! Haha that was so funny. Had some dinner at Hard Rock and then listened to the band in the Harbour. It was such a great day. Actually, it was a great weekend. Loved seeing my friends and showing them my life here. Thanks guy for driving all the way up here and enduring the traffic on the way home. Cya soon!!!

It's been a crazy few days. I've been so busy, but it's all worth it! First, Forth of July was the single greatest day ever. So, Katie and I went downtown to watch the fireworks. While we were sitting outside of Phillips Jen calls. So we go meet her and some others bc they are downtown too. Everyone went onto the Naval Academy to watch the fireworks. Well Jon had saved us the best seats ever. They were on the turf field. So, there we were, like 5 feet from the entire new class of Midshipmen. We saw some that I knew and this guy, Matt, that Katie loves. It was so much fun. Dono whether I watched the fireworks or the mids more! :) haha
So, we have this new thing to do on Thursdays. Last week, Katie, mom and I went to dinner at El Torro Bravo and then Katie and I went to the Officer club at the academy to go "mid hunting." Only when we got there, there were no mids around so we walked FOREVER around the base.
Ok, Tomorrow will be the best day ever. 1) It's my last day of work at Nordstrom!!!! 2) Kristi and Leigh-Ann are coming!!!!
Maybe thats enough rambling for now. but til next time...

HAPPY FORTH OF JULY!!!

Going over to Katie's in a bit for her party. Quit Nordstrom today. 4 More days, and its over! Then I get to paint or whatever needs to be done around AACS! So the calc test went very badly, but on the plus side, Kristi and Leigh-Ann are coming Thursday! Heck ya. OK time to go

Well, Tomorrow is Calc 3 Test 3. I feel incredibly unsure of this one. But I put in about 3.5 hours today and have been studying for a few days now. Guess it's just gonna happen tomorrow then. But I got a fun suprise study aid today! Thanks for the chocolates Keith!
Unsure of how to act, sorry about that. Trying to act normal, but its new territory. Tomorrow will be fun. Test, then sleeping by the pool all day. Yup thats all folks

GREATEST NEWS 2X's!
1. My Nana finally came home from the hospital today. Pray that she doesn't try to push herself too much and that her healing continues to go smoothly. Also, pray that my grandfather doesn't drive her crazy, bc I think he might! :)
2. Leigh-Ann and Kristi are coming to visit! July 8-12 (yes its during the camping trip, but arg) I'm so excited to have my great Charleston friends come up to create havoc on Naptown.

So, I think I'm gonna give my notice at Nordstrom this week. I hate it, and it's too much. Maybe a relaxing, boring summer is in need! Heck yeah. Def need more time to chill w/my friends up here. Too maybe people I want to be with, but no time. I hate not having time for fun, its summer vacation, one of the last (~tear~) and so it MUST be taken advantage of.

Great line from the original Shrek!
Lord Farquaad: Now, tell me! Who's hiding them?!
Gingerbread Man: Okay, I'll tell you. Do you know the Muffin Man?
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: Yes, I know the Muffin Man, who lives on Drury Lane?
Gingerbread Man: Well, she's married to the Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man!
Lord Farquaad: She's married to the Muffin Man.

Great line from the original Shrek!
Lord Farquaad: Now, tell me! Who's hiding them?!
Gingerbread Man: Okay, I'll tell you. Do you know the Muffin Man?
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: Yes, I know the Muffin Man, who lives on Drury Lane?
Gingerbread Man: Well, she's married to the Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man!
Lord Farquaad: She's married to the Muffin Man.

Today was a good day.
1. Went to class, it was boring (we had a sub) so I left way early.
2. Took a nap
3. Went to work
4. Katie and I went Downtown to "chat" and watch the mids
5. Talked to Keith
6. Time for bed!

Its 10:40, just finished a long day of work. It's amusing, Jen and Keith both sent me the exact same TM today while I was at work! It was cute, so awesome to have such amazing people in my life. One might been around longer, but the other is quickly becoming important as well! Guess its weird. I've been feeling really strange about the whole thing (if you know me, you know what I'm talking about). Really unsure about what to do/say. But everyone said it would become easier, it's ok. Maybe they're right. Guess it all just seemed so random, unsure how it came about. Maybe that's not such a bad thing? Dono where it'll go, but the journey might as well be fun right!?!? Been kinda overwhelmed but it all, but maybe the newness will fade away and become copesetic as well? Ok, enough of that. It's bed time. Some of us have 8AM class! Joy...

Dad and I just enjoyed yummy cream cycles!

Summer is supposed to be relaxing right? Well I've been working about 40 hours a week, plus going to school 8 hours and homework a week. So I'm getting more and more exhausted! I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to class tomorrow, it's time to skip one! Some may say that I'm a slacker, but hey, its summer, thats what its for! :)
James Taylor has been my cd of choice lately, kinda strange, but oddly relaxing and needed. These songs have been jumbling my mind and muddling my thoughts. Why do they keep wedging themselves in? Maybe it's because my emotions are vacillating and need something to sturdy them. James Taylor's music is reassuring and consoling. Here's some of the lyrics that have been tangled up lately:

In my mind I’m goin’ to carolina,
Can’t you see the sunshine?
Can’t you just feel the moonshine?
Maybe just like a friend of mine
It hit me from behind
Yes I’m goin’ to carolina in my mind...

...There ain’t no doubt it no ones mind
That loves the finest thing around
Whisper something warm and kind
And hey babe the sky’s on fire, I’m dyin’
Ain’t I goin’ to carolina in my mind

...Dark and silent last night
I think I might have heard the highway calling
Geese in flight and dogs that bite
Signs that might be omens say I going, going
I’m goin’ to carolina in my mind

The other song goes something like this:

There’s something in the way she moves,
Or looks my way, or calls my name,
That seems to leave this troubled world behind.
If I’m feeling down and blue,
Or troubled by some foolish game,
She always seems to make me change my mind.

And I feel fine anytime she’s around me now,
She’s around me now almost all the time.
And if I’m well you can tell that she’s been with me now,
And she’s been with me now quite a long, long time
And I feel fine.

Every now and then the things I lean on lose their meaning,
And I find myself careening
Into places where I should not let me go.
She has the power to go where no one else can find me,
Yes, and to silently remind me
Of the happiness and good times that I know, you know.
Well I said I just got to know that:

Haven't posted in a few days... Sorry, been really busy. Work and school have been killing me! Nordstrom gave me about 40 hours, plus my 8 hours of class a week plus homework! So, there's really no free time. Had a big test today, hopefully it went well.
Test drove a 2000 Toyota Celica today. It was a dream! 6 speed manual, WITH AC! Oh, how lovely it was! Black on black! Sunroof, cruise control.
I just got back from Red Hot and Blue. Keith-good call on the sweet tea, I do so miss it! We had the coolest thunderstorm today. Something about them really fascinates me. I put on some James Taylor, read a book and just chilled, it was the most relaxing thing ever!
Life is full of surprises isn't it? Maybe sometimes they take getting used to, even if they're good surprises. Ok, that was my deep thought, and now its time to go. :)

Here's a song that I think everyone needs to hear, or at least read the lyrics. It's called Untitled Hymn (Come to Jesus) by Chris Rice.

Weak and wounded sinner, Lost and left to die,
O, raise your head for Love is passing by,
Come to Jesus, Come to Jesus,
Come to Jesus and live,
Now your burden's lifted,And carried far away,
And precious blood has washed away the stain... so
Sing to Jesus,Sing to Jesus,
Sing to Jesus and live,
And like a newborn baby,Don't be afraid to crawl,
And remember when you walk sometimes we fall... so
Fall on Jesus, Fall on Jesus,
Fall on Jesus and live,
Sometimes the way is lonely,And steep and filled with pain,
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain... then
Cry to Jesus, Cry to Jesus,
Cry to Jesus and live,
O, and when the love splills over, and music fills the night,
And when you can't contain you joy inside... then
Dance for Jesus, Dance for Jesus,
Dance for Jesus and live,
And with your final heartbeat, Kiss the world goodbye,
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side... and
Fly to Jesus, Fly to Jesus, Fly to Jesus and live,
Fly to Jesus,Fly to Jesus,Fly to Jesus and live,

Something about this song moves me everytime. Maybe it reminds me how we should truly be giving everything, but that is such a trite phrase. Trite but true, and undone! Maybe because I heard it right after Mrs. Peck died and it makes me think of her. How listening to this song is like listening to the song of her life. Every moment I saw her, she was talking about Jesus. She came to Him, Sang to Him, Fell on Him, Cried to Him, Danced for Him, and finally she is Flying with Him. They say that people can be lead to Christ through the actions of another Believer, and in her case, that is the truth. So maybe that's why I want you all to listen to/read this song, because not only does it describe how our Walk is supposed to be, but it reminds me of a beautiful woman who is Flying with my Savior now!

Someone out there is meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to go see it. You'll put his picture in a frame by your bed. He'll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed or just because he was thinking of you. He'll look into your eyes and tell you that you're the most beautiful girl he has ever seen, and for the first time in your life...you'll believe it...

isn't that a fun quote? It was on a friends away message (we tend to "borrow" them from eachother frequently. I thought it was really sweet. Maybe it's from the chick-flick fantasy and that it's not completely realistic, but its nice. I do, however, believe that "the one" is not real. When I get married, I sincerely hope it's to my best friend. That guy should be your best friend bc you will be together forever. Ok, that's enough of that stuff. I can only handle it for so long :)
On a different note, my Nana's pacemaker surgery went well, but she apparently doesn't realize that she had the surgery yet. Hmm. Also, I passed the math test! Yeah!
AACSers- can you believe that we graduated 2 years ago today? Katie informed me of this today. It doesn't feel that long ago, yet it seems like a lifetime ago. Whoa, how crazy is that.
Keith- have a great time at the beach

Tomorrow at 8am is the big Calc 3 test! Whoa, But after that is the interview at the Main Ingredient, hopefully that will work out and I can quit Nordstrom. I love making coffee, but Nordstrom itself (my department) is so stupid. People gossip, the customers are rediculous, and it's not worth it. If I dont get the job, guess Nordstrom will do for another summer, but making ice storms will be the end of me :) Ok have a great day.

Also, my Nana might be getting her pacemaker tomorrow, so if you remember her in prayer I'd really appreciate it!

hey, just so you know, you can now leave comments on my blog! *hint hint* :)

Here's the update on my Nana. She had a partial hip replacement late Thursday evening. I spent the day w/her yesterday and she was on such strong pain medicine that she would talk for like 5 min then kinda doze off for a few. But apparently her heart paused for about 10 seconds early Saturday morning (which is not good at all) so I was there when the Cardiologist came in and actually caused her heart to pause again (trying to see if it was a 1 time thing, or if a pacemaker was necessary) and so Monday morning she's getting a pacemaker. So, if you could continue to pray for her and my family right now it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks

This was not a good day, by far. Woke up late, got to class, didn't realize I locked Andy in my room, and he had a fit peeing and pooping all over my room. So, that was fun to clean. Then I had a million and 1 errands to run... But when I got home, there was a message from Gumpy (my grandpa) saying "call me back as soon as you get this". He leaves messages like that all the time, and I rarely call back, bc its usually unimportant, but this time his voice was different. He said Nana had fallen and couldn't really move. That she wouldn't go to the hospital but that she was in a lot of pain. I heard her yelling at him for calling and telling me (she's a private person to say the least) but I called and told mom who told me go to up there and make her go to the hospital bc she wont yell at me. So I drove to Baltimore and took her to the hospital. Today, June 2, 2004, my grandmother's life changed forever. She broke her hip. She now has to have a pin put in sometime in the next few days, and she has to stay in the hospital for about 15 days, which leaves my 90 year old grandfather to be alone, with no one to drive him anywhere or help him out. I've always heard how elderly people can simple fall over and that's it... But it really happened. She was outside sweeping away the stupid Cidadas when she tripped and that was that. It's amazing, she drinks more milk that anyone I've ever met, and yet her bones are still so brittle. I told her next time she wants me to come up and visit with her, that she should just call, not break a hip! Well, I've been in the ER all day, so it's about time to try to sleep some. If you can please pray for my grandparents... That would be so wonderful. Thanks

Got a new drivers license today. The new MD one isnt so horrible. My picture came out ok other than my looking a little frightened in the picture. Today has not been my favorite day though. Lots of waiting in line... getting behind the one stupid person in each line! Arg, well Katie is coming over soon, hopefully it'll get better

I haven't written in a few days, basically because they have been crazy and stressful and everything that summer is NOT supposed to be. Friday I was off right? Well, Keith and I went put-putting, which was so fun! There were all these slow people in front of us, and then by like the 12th hole, they were all gone?!? And, yes Keith, there are mulligans in minigolf! So, I didn't want to carry my purse while playing minigolf, so I left the stuff in my car. Well, apparently I forgot to lock the door, because when we got back from DQ, my purse (wallet and cell) had been stolen. So for a week or 2, I have no credit cards, no nothing and I can't get a new drivers license until Tuesday because of Memorial Day Weekend. My mom was excited to get a new cell phone though. We went to Verizon and were all eligible for new phones at the sale price, so mom picked out a "cute flip phone" and so we got "buy 1 get 1 free" and therefore I have now joined the throngs and have a flip phone.
Saturday was spent trying to get the phones and everything else cancelled and such, then working. Today was better though. Church, nice long nap (OH IT WAS SO SWEET), then went over to Jen's to watch Mona Lisa Smile. It was so funny because Lauren and Kate decided on the way home to stop at the liquor store and get something but the first place was closed so we had to drive to another store. I guess what makes it funny is that here I am, sitting w/my pastors daughter, and Jen's older sister and we're watching a chick flick and they are drinking (nothing out of control) but it's like, whoa we are getting older. I can do that in 6 months... Legally. It was just kinda surreal to see people I have known as underage forever as just sitting around having a drink. Kinda cool !
Well, that's just a quick update about life. Hope it satiated everyone's thirst to know more about what's going on!

Also, here's a random song that I just heard, it makes me think of the WONDER YEARS

We've Got Tonight
I know it’s late, I know you’re weary
I know your plans don’t include me
Still here we are, both of us lonely
Longing for shelter from all that we see
Why should we worry, no one will care girl
Look at the stars so far away
We’ve got tonight, who needs tomorrow?
We’ve got tonight babe
Why don’ t we stay?

Deep in my soul, I’ve been so lonely
All of my hopes, fading away
I’ve longed for love, like everyone else does
I know I’ll keep searching, after today
So there it is girl, I’ve got it all now
And here we are babe, what do you say?
We’ve got tonight, who needs tomorrow?
We’ve got tonight babe
Why don’t we stay?

I know it’s late, I know you’re weary
I know your plans don’t include me
Still here we are, both of us lonely
Both of us lonely
We’ve got tonight, who needs tomorrow?
Let’s make it last, let’s find a way
Turn off the light, come take my hand now
We’ve got tonight babe
Why don’t we stay?
We’ve got tonight babe
Why don’t we stay?

Since Monday, I've been attending Calc 3 classes from 8:00-9:50am. Arg, no one should ever have to be awake that early in the summer. But today was funny, I was wide awake, coherent and chipper. If you know me, you know that is NOT my morning self. I was taken aback by this. (side bar- my puppy is licking the bottom of my foot and it tickles... Ok he's interested in a bug now!)
The Blue Angels flew today. They are so amazing. The way they fly so close together and that booming supersonic roar that just rattles right through you. Amazing. All you can do is stare. Then on top of that they do twists and such. It has been wonderful to grow up near the Academy because they fly, without fail, every year and it's tradition to skip school to go watch them. Sometimes you can even get it excused. I remember senior year, a bunch of us were in Mr. Leith's class, bc we hadn't come up with viable excuses to leave school to see the Blue Angels. Well, we asked him if we could go outside and watch (they flew right over school so class was basically pointless) and he said no. Normally, I'm very obedient and such to authority figures, but that day, like a week before the end of high school, sitting listening to them fly over... I walked out. And as I would have expected, a few followed (suprisingly the well-behaved ones!!) and eventually Mr. Leith himself joined us. See, the moral of the story is that EVERYONE SHOULD SKIP WHATEVER THEY ARE DOING TO SEE THE BLUE ANGELS!

Sunday May 23, 2004

Just got in from my first trip to Rita's this year! Dad and I ventured out and he got lime (to make his tongue green) and I got blueberry (bc it has lil blueberries in it and it makes your tongue really blue)! It was such fun. We just sat in the car and listened to Kenny Chesney! What a great end to an amazingly lazy day!!!
I found a bookmark today that would have been so great to have during the fall 2003 school year, but finding it now, it makes me smile and be thankful for God preserving me through that time. It goes as follows:

DON'T QUIT
Don't quit when the tide is lowest,
For it's just about to turn
Don't quit over doubts and questions,
For there's something you may learn.
Don't quit when the night is darkest
For it's just a while til dawn.
Don't quit when you've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.
Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh;
Don't quit when you're not a failure
Until you fail to try ~Jim Wolf

It's really a great feeling to have stayed at a college for more than a semester, and not only be content with the school and my life, but to love it and long to get it started back up. Don't get me wrong, the days of floating on a floaty and sleeping in Katie's pool are priceless gifts each and every time, but this year has been such a huge accomplishment!
Also, people say "I feel so close/distant from God lately" and I have to say I'm in a funk (no Katie... I didn't say the dreaded word that we must never say). Maybe starting class at 8am will help get back into the routine. Waking up early and having time for devos was great, but with my lack of any kind of regimented schedule, you'd think I'd have more time for devos, but like the saying goes "idle hands do the devils work" and not that I've been behaving badly, but I haven't been praying or studying like I should. It'd be great to be able to say that God just isn't there, or that He's just distant now, but that'd be falling into a trap that the devil has set up. That Lucifer, he's a sneaky one, but we still all fall for his dastardly little tricks don't we? Rather, the blame must lay fully upon my shoulders. Christ is ever-present and it is not He who separates Himself. Why does He keep taking me back after everything? Arrogant, selfish, demanding, rude, callous, lustful, uncaring... And those characteristics could describe me on a good day. But like Mr. Peck said today, we all need to rebooted into the Spirit-OS (Operating System). Jesus continually wants us to be booted up with Him at the center. So, that is the goal of the week: pack my bags and get back on track, and have the Spirit-OS!

Wednesday May 19, 2004

So, today I made a slight blunder. Hopefully not cataclysmic, but definitely not the best move. Apparently, one part of a family was not supposed to know another family member was in the hospital. So, when I saw that family that wasnt supposed to know, and they mentioned that the other family had missed the bday party that day, I told them where they were. Well, apparently, that was not supposed to happen! Arg, why cant people tell me when things are supposed to be kept on the downlow? bc then I can do that! arg, now I feel really bad! So, I'm sorry!

On another note... Work officially starts tomorrow. The lazy summer must be put aside for a few weeks. Time to buckle down and work and go to class. JOY!! Also, Tonight I successfully got Katie hooked to DDR! YES!!!!!!!!! Is anyone from SC planning to come visit up here? Bc that would be so tight! Nan, I cant believe youre going to Taiwan soon. Hopefully God will use you there, but that He will work in your mightly. Though you are going to minister... you are also being ministered to. That will be an amazing time to grow! I'm so excited for you.

Monday May 17, 2004

Just a quick thought: During high school, that time in life felt so important, so HUGE. But looking back it seems so insignificant. Is it that way for anyone else?

Sunday May 16, 2004 (still)

decided to copy, paste and change the answers from Nan.
Name: Christy
Single or taken: Single
Sex: Female
Birthday: Feb 2, 1984
Sign: Aquarius
Siblings: none
Hair color: Auburn (Isnt that word fun?)
Eye color: Hazelish
Height: 5'6"

· × · R E L A T I O N S H I P S · × ·
Who are your best friends?: um, I have many special friends taht can fit that description. Katie L, Jen, Kristi K, Nan.. if I didnt put you on here, it's becaues we're still becoming tight!You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Um... not if I'm single!


· × · F A S H I O N | S T U F F · × ·
Where is your favorite place to shop: A&F and J Crew
Any tattoos or piercings: ears, but I really wana tattoo

· × · S P E C I F I C S · × ·
Do you do drugs?: no
What kind of shampoo do you use?: suave
What are you most scared of?: these cicada things are creepy!
What are you listening to right now?: All American Rejects
Who is the last person that called you?: my grandma
Where do you want to get married?: In a church somewhere in downtown Charleston.
How many buddies are online right now? 20/56 on 1 sn and 27/83 on the other
What would you change about yourself?: lack of patience

· × · F A V O R I T E S · × ·
Color: hunter green, sky blue
Food: tacos... strawberry limeade
Boys names: Christopher
Girls names: Josephine
Subjects in school: Math (yeah i'm a nerd)
Animals: Dogs

· × · H A V E | Y O U | E V E R · × ·
Given anyone a bath?: yup, babysitting is such fun
Smoked?: :) yup
Bungee jumped?: I've done those things at Kings Dominion
Made yourself throw up?: tried
Skinny dipped?: nope
Ever been in love?: Prolly not.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yup
Pictured your crush naked?: hahaha maybe!
Actually seen your crush naked?: No
Cried when someone died?: yeah I did
Lied: I'd be lying if I said no.
Fallen for a best friend?: Pretty sure that happened
Been rejected?: dono if I've put myself out far enough
Rejected someone?: yeah
Used someone?: lol, maybe!
Done something you regret?: yeah, horribly

· × · C U R R E N T · × ·
Clothes: white undershirt and shorts
Music: All American Rejects - My paper heart
Make-up: well I've been in the pool all day, so none
Annoyance: that the price of gasoline is $2.00
Smell: my basement doesnt smell like anything
Desktop picture: on my comp: a pic from the BDAY party at citadel mall, on dad's comp that I'm typing from.. nothing
Book you're reading: Glorious Appearing
CD in player: All American Rejects
DVD in player: Nothing, havent unpacked my DVDs yet

· × · L A S T | P E R S O N · × ·
You touched: Katie's mom hugged me
hugged: Mrs. Leek
You imed: Kate W.
You yelled at: the stupid driver who almost killed KT and I when leaving Harbor Center getting onto Route 50
You Kissed: I think Mrs. Beaton kissed my cheek in church?!?

× · A R E | Y O U · × ·
Understanding: to my friends. absolutely
Open-minded: depends on the topic.
Arrogant: yup
Insecure: yup
Random: Have you met me? haha yeah
Hungry: no. Katie's mom made yummy fried chicken, and then gave us warm homemade brownies and something else w/strawberries and whipped cream. awww!
Smart: HECK YA... oh wait, that goes back to being arrogant! haha
Moody: yeah. have to admit that yes! waking up is not a pleasant time
Hard working: wana be
Organized: have you seen my color coordinated schedule? and my planner is never far from my side!
Healthy: occasionally
Shy: at first
Difficult: occasionally
Attractive: to some... :)
Bored easily: yeah
Responsible: try to be
Angry: not at the moment. but I'm working on my temper!
Sad: not anymore
Happy: heck yeah, I just spent the day floating around w/kt and will do that again tomorrow
Hyper: not currently
Trusting: until you break it!

· × · W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A · × ·
Kill?: Satan.
Slap: eh no one I guess
Get really wasted with?: Katie, Manda, Leigh-Ann and Kristi F. that would be a crazy combination
Talk to offline: Everyone!
Talk to online: Everyone!
Sex it up with: hehehe I think this is a great question

· × · R A N D O M · × ·
In the morning I am: confused and quiet,
All you need is : a puppy
love is: check 1 Cor 13
I dream about: flying around w/my dog Casey and saving the world! then somehow we end up in a river... dont ask
Sexual preference: hehe this is a great Question too! BOYS!
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: i like tall skinny boys... w/cute ears. and personality

· × · W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R · × ·
Coke or Pepsi: either
Flowers or candy: both are great
Tall or short: Taller.

· × · W H O · × ·
Makes you laugh the most: Leigh-Ann, Nan, Katie, Nathan, Isaac, and others!
Makes you smile: you!
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: if you know me... then you know! have to go w/Isaac here, but hopefully that'll pass soon!?!?
· × · D O | Y O U | E V E R · × ·
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: Ha ha ha! I have before. lol. So yeah.
Save conversations: lol, I'm a loser, yes!!!!
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: I have before, but every sex has their disadvantages.
wish you were younger: I miss being 5!
Cried because someone said something to you?: yeah!
· × · N U M B E R · × ·
Of times I have had my heart broken: dont think any... maybe once
Of hearts I have broken: one or two
Of guys I've kissed: this seems like a convo we had on the beach the other day!
Of girls I've kissed: none
Of CD's I own: too many
Of scars on my body: too many. I was a dare-devil!
Of things that I regret: so so many

· × · Y O U R | T H O U G H T S · × ·
I know: who my friends that really count are!
I want: a husband eventually
I have: peeling skin still!
I wish: I had AC in my car!
I hate: that theres no sonic in driving distance
I fear: that I will be covered with cicadas
I hear: music and IMs
I search: for my underwear... the dog usually steals it and puts it under the bed... welcome home!
I wonder: why I miss SC so much!
I love: my friends for making life fun!

Sunday May 16, 2004

So I tried to write about my time in SC w/Jen and such but it aparently didnt publish. *Sigh* Oh well, if you wana hear funny stories about my bathing suit breaking or my top coming partially off on Folly... just ask. Also, funny stuff about Nan and the DARK SIDE tour and chillin w/Leigh Ann!

Today was so great! I hung out w/Katie. It's been a really long (like a year) since we just got to chill together and you know what, it was exactly the same! It was so great because when everything else is changing, that stayed constant. Even after a year of totally separate lives, we just talked and chilled like normal. I love you Katie... even though you are better at Super NES than me! :) Well, cya tomorrow chica!

ok, forgot to add. So I used to like Hanson (ok, I admit it, I LIKE HANSON!) and there new song is amazing. So for your reading pleasure here is PENNY AND ME by Hanson:

Cigars in the summertime
Under the sky by the light I can feel her read my mind
I can see it in her eyes
Under the moon as it plays like music every line
There's a rug with a bleeding dye
Under the fan in the room where the passion's burning high
By the chair with the leopard skin under the light
It's always Penny and me tonight

On the plane step with both my feet
Riding in seat number three on a flight to NYC
Got my bean in a coffee cup next to my seat
Catch the view and another good book to read
Sitting at home over the friendly skies missing her eyes
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up push the pedal to the ground
Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Staring at a million city lights
But still Penny and I are all alone beneath the sky
Feel the wind brushing slowly by
If I could soar I would try, to take these wings and fly
Away to where the leaves turn red
But no matter where I am instead
Singing along to feeling alright
Or making it by under pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up push the pedal to the ground
Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny likes to get away
And drown her pain, in lemonade
Penny dreams of rainy days
And nights up late, by the fireplace
And aimless conversations about the better days

Singing along to feeling alright
Making it by under pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up push the pedal to the ground
Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Friday May 7, 2004

So, Today has been pretty productive so far. Last night, I babysat Jonas (YEAH), then rushed home to watch friends w/Leigh Ann and Susan, yeah for Ross and Rachel ending up together!! So after that we went to Nan's and watched Top Gun! You can never go wrong with navy boys and tom cruise! HECK YA! We were there til around 1:30 or 2, then we came back. Today, I woke up, did all my laundry and cleaned... No more dust! Then I went to Harris Teeter and got SHREK fruit snacks, they are so yummy! Definitely a fan! Rachel and I went into Millenium and played heart and soul... It was fun! Well, now I'm just gonna relax and wait for jen! yeah!

Wednesday May 5, 2004

Today was my last day of work! Things are slowly winding down... just when it was getting fun! But its ok. Fun is still ahead. Tomorrow: Beach and yup thats it, just the beach. What a great day!!! Friday: Turn in exam, Beach, Jen comes, Free Ghost Tour! Saturday: Beach, then Plex/Neon Moon! heck ya! Livin it up in Charleston!!!!!!

[ x ] Spell your first name backwards – ytsirhC
[ x ] The story behind your Blog user name- um, its my screen name
[ x ] Where do you live – Charleston... and Annapolis?!? I dono... I'm lost
[ x ] Four words that sum you up- funny, sporty, hot, caliente!
[ x ] Wallet- got home cash... turned in some books! so only a lil cash
[ x ] Hairbrush – never use one
[ x ] Toothbrush – its blue
[ x ] Pillow cover – blue and white stripies
[ x ] Blanket – blue and white box things... quilt
[ x ] Coffee cup – says CHARLESTON AIR FORCE BASE!
[ x ] Sunglasses – finally got em back from mari
[ x ] Underwear – apparently its white today
[ x ] Shoes – my tennis shoes
[ x ] Favorite shirt – says NAPTOWN
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume – For me or him? Me: childe... vanilla. Him: A&F
[ x ] CD in stereo right now – all-american rejects
[ x ] Tattoos – Like Pheobe (the whole world in a dot)
[ x ] Piercings – yup
[ x ] What you are wearing now – jeans and a tshirt
[ x ] Hair – auburn
[ x ] Makeup – eye shadow
[ x ] In my mouth – A tongue.
[ x ] In my head – nothing
[ x ] Wishing – IF I ONLY HAD A BRAIN...
[ x ] After this – LAST EXAM
[ x ] Talking to – nan
[ x ] Eating – nada
[ x ] Fetishes – dawsons creek. smoking when stressed. nothing good
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason – well, on the off chance that they read this, maybe I should just kinda skip it. but if its you.... YEAH ITS YOU!
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – Justin. I miss you
[ x ] Is next to you- a window. and nan
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – jen is coming friday!
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of – people knowing too much
[ x ] Do you like candles – well, i have like 50, you take that how you want
[ x ] Do you like hot wax – when it molds to my finger and then i peal it off, its cool
[ x ] Do you like incense – dono
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – actually, when I was a kid, i thought it was cool. but that was only to impress the boys!
[ x ] Do you believe in love – Yeppers.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight – attraction is quite nice
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven – Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness – Yes, and that's very important! To forgive and forget!
[ x ] Do you believe in God - Yes.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die – well i'm that rare kid who wont die! so this question is a mute point. But on the off chance that I do perish, I dono know what I want and it wont matter bc it wont really affect me!
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy – Satan, I hate what he does to me and my friends and family!
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be – I LOVE MY PUPPIES
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up – too long, mom said i was cranky and made me sleep
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium – nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks – yeah.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin – i saw the most awesome thing... a NEW NICKEL!
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to – Charleston (permenant), Bemuda, I guess anywhere not too horribly far from home
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods – chips, ice cream. yum

[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand – that I am not always funny, and that I'm not always serious
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better – Why there needs to be drama? I mean what the heck?!? so stupid
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time – sometimes I miss my calvin friends a lot!

Sunday May 2, 2004

HAPPY 90TH BIRTHDAY GUMPY! It was awesome to talk to my grandfather today, for his bday. Its funny how my (and prolly everyone's) grandparents love to tell stories of when I was young, and they tell the same stories everytime, but its cute. I love him so much. He used to be my grandfather who could do anything and everything. The man who would sit and play gin rummy or monopoly junior with me, or go golfing and to "where summer never ends" for hours on end. To me, he'll always be the grandfather who I just wanted to be around all the time!

Today was fun again! haha. Went to bojangles for the first time. Haha I was looking for breakfast on the menu and Leigh Ann was like "if it has the word biscuit in it, its breakfast.... Have you ever had a biscuit?" And to that all I could do was laugh. So she said "well you are from up north, I dono, do they eat biscuits there?" YES, just because I'm from up there... Doesn't mean I don't eat biscuits haha. That was great. Then we went to Nan's church. Ashley River was really nice, I liked it a lot actually. That's for another great day in Charleston!

On a different note. Something I haven't discussed in a while. The more pensive side is emerging. Maybe its because I don't want to study, or maybe its just because its finally time to tell the truth. But this is my last time writing/thinking about this, because once it's out... I'm done with it, and sadly, I'm done with all the drama caused by this. Our friendship last semester was awesome, fun and honest... Or was it? You dropped me so easily this semester and then seemed angry when I didn't fall apart without you. I cant, nor will I be sorry for that! I tried so hard in the beginning to keep you involved... And you made it clear you didn't want a part of me anymore. Its not my job to make you happy, and sorry that you hate it here so much. It really is a shame that you feel like I was a waste of your time. That you took a chance letting me know you, and that you feel it was for nothing. And if this is the end... Maybe its the end. But I just want to let you know that it wasn't nothing to me, being your friend, even if it was only for a brief moment was not a waste to me. But sometimes, you have to move on and grow up. So that's what this is... Me moving on and growing up!

Saturday May 1, 2004

I've decided... I LOVE MY FRIENDS! These people that I have met here in Charleston just make me laugh and smile so much. Last semester, this is all I wanted. God has truly blessed me this semester and I need to remember to Thank Him so much for this! It really is such an answer to prayer. This place was somewhere that I dreaded. Somewhere that was devoid of relationships and depressing. However, this semester has been such a 180! Life has improved exponentially. BCM has connected me to students who love the Lord and just make me want to seek Him more.
It has been really fun and rewarding to get to minister through sports such as basketball, softball and floor hockey! I hope the Lord continues to provide ways for us to spread His gospel to those who would not normally come and sit at BCM or anything else like it. Praise to the Father for connecting me with those who have a love and passion for the Lord and for Sports, and a desire to combine the two!
So, I really want to personally thank each and everyone of you... Nan, KJ, Ashley, Rachel, Kristi Ford, Leigh Ann, and %n! Thank you so much. Much love to everyone else who has impacted me this semester.
Thank you for helping me come out of my shell, for letting my true self show, for letting me become apart of your lives. Though I try to be funny, and sure it doesn't work all the time :) , I want you to know that under that is a girl... woman (?!?)... who cares deeply about you all, and will miss you incredibly over the summer. My prayer is that the Lord continues to strengthen our relationships over the summer and during the years to come. Let this summer be one in which we just cannot help but preach the Truth to everyone around us! Matthew 11:1 says "After Jesus had finished instructing his 12 disciples, he went on from there to teach and preach in the towns of Galilee (Greek: In their towns)." We have finished our instruction from both BCM/Church/C of C for the year, and now its time... time to go to our towns, where ever we are from, and preach! So, in conclusion to my rambling I will leave with this simple message from John. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Thursday April 29, 2004

YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF CLASSES THIS SEMESTER... YEAH!!
So last night could have been the most random day ever. So, I finally went bowling... After the last time where bowling ended up as an evening at chuckie cheese! So, it was Isaac and I, Andy (Isaac's roommate) and Jen, Charlie (the guys Pi kappa big brother) and Ashley, then we met Nan there. Only everyone piled into my car because they were so wasted. So Andy was in the trunk and the others, except for jen, were loudly singing odd songs and poking eachother. Haha, then we got to the bowling alley after a very entertaining hour at wendy's!!! It was guys verses girls. So, Charlie decided it would be fun to throw the ball from really far back, and he got strikes that way. Not fair. The only strike I got was when we bowled in a line. I used my left hand, couldn't see bc Isaac's hat is too big, he was holding my right hand and nan's right hand. haha it was so funny. Then Isaac started hugging everyone, and he wouldn't let me go, and saying he loved me. Hmm. Drunken people are sure interesting.
So, when I got back, I went to Pluto Rocks with KJ, Jenn, Leigh Ann, and Alli. That band was amazing at cover songs. They played an amazingly large variety of music. I wana go back.
Well, exams start soon, but at least everything will be done by Tuesday and then Jen will be coming down. YEAH GOOD TIMES!!!!!

Tuesday April 20, 2004

We all knew it was ensuing quickly, but I still don't quite understand it. Mrs. Peck collapsed on Friday and is now asleep with Jesus. That is an odd saying for someone who loved Jesus on this earth. Because we tell little kids that the dead are just sleeping, but as we grow and study the scriptures more, we learn that they are not asleep, but rather they are praising the Father forever. Everything that hurt her in this life, the pain she had to endure is relinquished and her body is made perfect in Christ. Mrs. Peck, though not my official grandmother, was much more than just Jen's grandmother to me. She was family, and not just family that I had to love because they were related, but family that I loved unconditionally and simply.
If you know me at all, you know I'm not the most touchy-feely girl in the world. I'm a big proponent of the personal bubble and always have been. But Mrs. Peck invaded and crushed my bubble over and over again, and in the best possible way. Since my junior year in high school, she took it upon herself to teach me to be a good hugger. She would hunt me down at each service and hug me, whether I stood there uncomfortably, or started to hug w/the 1-arm quick slap on the back hug. Eventually, I came around and searched her out, and hugged her: a real, and not-forced hug. I hugged her because she first hugged me... Whoa, She was showing me Christ even through something as simple as a hug. "We love because He first loved me" 1 John 4:19 (thanks for finding that Nan)!
So, I guess all I can do is miss this wonderful lady, and praise the Lord for the impact she had on my life. I can only hope to be as influential for the Kingdom of Christ as she was throughout her lifetime. Praise God for this women of the Lord.

Friday April 16, 2004

Yesterday was so fun! Around 6, Isaac, Leigh-Ann (and her friend Suzzie), Nan and Wade attempted to go bowling, but it didn't happen bc no lanes were open, so we went to Chuckie Cheese WHERE A KID CAN BE A KID instead. Haha it was so fun. I beat Isaac at race cars, but only once... Then Nan and I danced w/Chuckie! So after that we came back, around 9 I guess. So, then I decided to actually go to Isaac's Pi Kappa Phi party. So, luckily, KJ and Leigh-Ann came! Yeah for awesome back up... my heros! But it was funny to watch everything that goes on there. We drank Dr Thunder and played cards while everyone else was playing beer bong, which I might add could possibly be the dumbest game ever! What's the point of throwing that ball into a cup? haha. Oh well, it was fun and amusing.

But here's the song I've been listening to lately, its called THE REASON by HOOBASTANK:

"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person, There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know

CHORUS
I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be
A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you, It's something I must live with everyday
& all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away
& be the 1 who catches all your tears thats why i need you to hear

CHORUS

I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know

CHORUS

I've found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do and the reason is you

Tuesday April 13, 2004

So, I just wrote all about that weekend w/Kristi and John and the comp lost the internet, and also the thing I was writing. So, basically we sat on some swings, napped, went to Dinner and kristi got crazy tired and was acting drunk!
Last weekend, I went home for Easter, which was nice. Can anyone believe that we have 2 weeks of classes left? what a fast year.
Well, I've just been busy lately with classes, homework, work, and playing softball. Also Nan got me to play floor hockey. It was fun, but prolly not something you should do with a cold haha. There were a lotta Pi Kappa Phi boys there, which was cool since I've been hanging out w/some of them lately. Whoa this year went fast...

Sunday April 4, 2004
This was the craziest weekend ever. Friday night, I went to the senior semiformal dance with Brian. Actually, it was really nice. Though it was like 40 degrees out and I had a sleeveless dress and sandals on and shivered, the ambiance was amazing. It was out on the cistern, and there were candles in all the right spots making it light enough, yet kinda romantically dark out. The dinner was amazing. Chicken, asparagus, salad, pasta... Oh oh oh and coffee! Luckily, after I was convulsively shaking from the cold Brian gave me his jacket. Afterward, we went and got some more coffee at Port City Java and walked around Marion Square even though it was like BRRR out. It was a suprisingly good time!
Friday/Saturday:
So John Parks and Kristi Kohl came down. Who felt the love? That's right, I did. They drove all night, and arrived in Charleston at like 5:30am. Whoa. So we napped for a bit, and then Kristi and I somehow ended up in the midst of the Cooper River Bridge Run, and got yelled at for not being official racers and in the way! Oops! :) So, we came back, and John was so cute sleeping we couldn't wake him. So we went to the Battery and waterfront park until he woke up. Then we all went to Folly Beach, brr it was cold. But it was amusing to watch Kristi kick the dead starfish, poor lil sucker! But a good word of advice: when there's a sign for FREE BOILED PEANUTS... STEER CLEAR! BLECK BLECK BLECK! What the heck was that trash? Not good. However, lunch at Sonic more than made up for it. Well must sleep, cant focus... But will write more about the good times later!

Sunday March 21, 2004
So I must confess that I have not been using this journal for it's intended purpose. I started it to write about how God was impacting my life... And the majority of the entries lately haven't been close to that. Maybe that, in a way, depicts the journey my life has taken as of late. South Carolina is becoming more and more fun. There are a plethora of friends to hang out with, homework to keep me busy forever, and then a job on top of that. So, in a way that's great, life hasn't been spiraling out of control like a plane in a deep unrecoverable spin, which is quite nice. However, it also has caused me to become complacent. That old lie, "I can take care of myself" has been whispering itself continually into my ear and I have been listening. But the funny thing is lies are always wrong, even if it does seem like "I can take care of myself." Jesus is the Sustainer. He is the only reason that anything is ok. On the radio "I've always loved you" by Third Day came on. The lyrics really struck me...
"Don't you know I've always loved you, Even before there was time. Though you turn away I'll tell you still. Don't you know I've always loved you and I always will. Greater love has not a man than the one who gives his life to prove that he would do anything and that's what I'm going to do for you" God loves me even when I turn. He stays the steady constant, while my life ebbs and flows like the waves. I've always seen myself as a very solid person, one who wouldn't waver and though outwardly I can appear steadfast, inwardly its all brokendown. But, to use more Third Day lyrics: "Set this place (my heart) on fire, Send you spirit, Savior. Rescue from the mire, Show Your servant favor. Yesterday was the day that I was alone. Now I'm in the presence of Almighty God and yes our God, He is a consuming fire!!! And the flames burn down deep in my soul. Yes our God He is a consuming fire He reaches inside and He melts down this cold heart of stone." That is my prayer. Dear Father, reach into my heart and change it from stone into one on fire for you, Lord. Let Your presence be seen and known to and through me. Take my supercilious mind and make it all about You, because in Truth it is all about You, Jesus."