Thursday February 26, 2004
The song LESS IS MORE by Relient K is so amazing. It's like everything I want to tell to the Lord but cant put into words. So here it is, hope it touches you like it does me:
Jesus, I pray Take all my mistakes
Throw them away
Destroy them for my sake
Jesus, I call out 'cause I'm sorry Because I fall so short of your glory
To the best of my ability I'm practicing humility
And I lay myself before 'Cause less is more
CHORUS:
All that I have I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more
All that I have I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more
A part of myself All that I am
You love me so much That you fill me again
And may these words on my heart, on my lips
Somehow mean so much more than this
Jesus, I pray Know what I'm trying to say
CHORUS
I pour out myself, before you O Lord
I hold nothing back, 'cause to you less is more
And may these words on my heart on my lips,
Somehow mean so much more than this
Jesus, I pray Just know what I'm tryin' to say
Jesus, I plead Please purify me
Make my heart clean Drench me with your mercy
Jesus, I pray I love you, I need you
For the rest of my days I swear I will seek you
To the best of my ability I'm practicing humility
And I lay myself before 'Cause less is more.
26 February 2004
25 February 2004
Wednesday February 25, 2004
TOP 10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT MY ROOMMATE: (I'll try to keep it as short as possible)
1. She might actually be stupid, as in lacking common sense.
2. Doesn't know how to clean at all.
3. Watches TV 24/7, I mean gesh a whip, get off your butt occasionally.
4. When the TP roll has 1 square left, PUT A NEW ROLL ON.
5. As much as you think I like it, cleaning your poop off the toilet seat is not my favorite activity.
6. Is the only color in the world pink?
7. When did it become cool to slam every door when I walk into/out of a room?
8. Do you have to scratch all my pots and pans, then leave them dirty for me?
9. Toe nail clippings all over the living room floor... Need I say more?
10. Apparently I'm intolerant BC I don't want to hear sex going on next door!
A BONUS ONE: Love how she totally ignores me all the time. It's like I don't even exist, then of course, that's all my fault too! Oh how I love living with Kelli!!!
Well, that was me venting. This post should probably be erased soon, but I hate to write it for my own sanity!! Whoa, this is the most mean post ever. Not quite my normal self. But sometimes you reach a boiling pt, and I'm way over it!
TOP 10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT MY ROOMMATE: (I'll try to keep it as short as possible)
1. She might actually be stupid, as in lacking common sense.
2. Doesn't know how to clean at all.
3. Watches TV 24/7, I mean gesh a whip, get off your butt occasionally.
4. When the TP roll has 1 square left, PUT A NEW ROLL ON.
5. As much as you think I like it, cleaning your poop off the toilet seat is not my favorite activity.
6. Is the only color in the world pink?
7. When did it become cool to slam every door when I walk into/out of a room?
8. Do you have to scratch all my pots and pans, then leave them dirty for me?
9. Toe nail clippings all over the living room floor... Need I say more?
10. Apparently I'm intolerant BC I don't want to hear sex going on next door!
A BONUS ONE: Love how she totally ignores me all the time. It's like I don't even exist, then of course, that's all my fault too! Oh how I love living with Kelli!!!
Well, that was me venting. This post should probably be erased soon, but I hate to write it for my own sanity!! Whoa, this is the most mean post ever. Not quite my normal self. But sometimes you reach a boiling pt, and I'm way over it!
21 February 2004
Saturday February 21, 2004
I started work this week. East Bay Coffee House. Its really nice, like a high-end shop. Not too busy, not too slow. And its nice to have a job, something besides school that I'm expected to do!!
Heather had a new baby girl on Wednesday at 2:00pm. Jerusha Cathleen Jonsson, but she's being called Shae. I visited them at the hospital yesterday and they let me hold her. She's so tiny and precious, just under 5.5 lbs. She was sleeping and had lil long dark eyelashes and you could see the wisps of dark hair under her lil cap. A dark haired girl and a blonde haired blue eye Boy. Yeah, they think Jonas has pink eye. Joy, who spent all day with him Thursday? haha
So I've been thinking, yeah yeah not a good thing to do, but it happened just the same. People are so strange. You follow the law and are called "narrow minded" Sometimes I think I don't understand. Maybe it makes them feel guilty for their wrong actions. And breaking the law is wrong, just because everyone does it, doesn't make it right. Hebrews 10:32-33 is a great comfort in this matter. "Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insults and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated."
Does anyone know why immaturity runs so rampant? Is it really that hard to simple take responsibility for yourself and your actions? Maybe I was just brought up to think that my actions were a result of myself and not others. This quote was pretty awesome "Immature people become angry at other people. Mature people become angry at wrong words, wrong deeds, and wrong thoughts." Just a little something to ponder, bc its true. Instead of seeing the wrong in yourself you have to point to others. Its just like "And why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye, but do not perceive the plank in your own eye? "Or how can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me remove the speck that is in your eye,' when you yourself do not see the plank that is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck that is in your brother's eye."
Luke 6:41-42 Man the Bible really does relate to every situation we go through. How amazing is that?
I started work this week. East Bay Coffee House. Its really nice, like a high-end shop. Not too busy, not too slow. And its nice to have a job, something besides school that I'm expected to do!!
Heather had a new baby girl on Wednesday at 2:00pm. Jerusha Cathleen Jonsson, but she's being called Shae. I visited them at the hospital yesterday and they let me hold her. She's so tiny and precious, just under 5.5 lbs. She was sleeping and had lil long dark eyelashes and you could see the wisps of dark hair under her lil cap. A dark haired girl and a blonde haired blue eye Boy. Yeah, they think Jonas has pink eye. Joy, who spent all day with him Thursday? haha
So I've been thinking, yeah yeah not a good thing to do, but it happened just the same. People are so strange. You follow the law and are called "narrow minded" Sometimes I think I don't understand. Maybe it makes them feel guilty for their wrong actions. And breaking the law is wrong, just because everyone does it, doesn't make it right. Hebrews 10:32-33 is a great comfort in this matter. "Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insults and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated."
Does anyone know why immaturity runs so rampant? Is it really that hard to simple take responsibility for yourself and your actions? Maybe I was just brought up to think that my actions were a result of myself and not others. This quote was pretty awesome "Immature people become angry at other people. Mature people become angry at wrong words, wrong deeds, and wrong thoughts." Just a little something to ponder, bc its true. Instead of seeing the wrong in yourself you have to point to others. Its just like "And why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye, but do not perceive the plank in your own eye? "Or how can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me remove the speck that is in your eye,' when you yourself do not see the plank that is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck that is in your brother's eye."
Luke 6:41-42 Man the Bible really does relate to every situation we go through. How amazing is that?
16 February 2004
Monday, February 16, 2004
This was such a great weekend. Thursday night my momma came! Friday we shopped and then went to California dreaming w/Karen. Saturday was valentines day... And what did we do? haha, we did nothing even remotely valentines day-ish. We shopped more, BC we're good at that. Then that night, we went to Burger King and saw Calendar Girls... Such a funny movie. "We aren't naked, we're nude. Nude is art, while naked is trashy" oh I was laughing so hard. Sunday was church and seeing Heather, Ben and Jonas. Her baby is coming Wednesday, yeah yeah yeah! I get to hang out w/yet another lil Jonsson! Then we went to California dreaming again and I went to play bball. Oh course on the only game she gets to see of me this year, I sprain my ankle. But its ok. I'm just glad she could be here. I love when she comes to visit. I think I don't realize how much I miss her until I see her again! Well, more to come tomorrow or soonish...
This was such a great weekend. Thursday night my momma came! Friday we shopped and then went to California dreaming w/Karen. Saturday was valentines day... And what did we do? haha, we did nothing even remotely valentines day-ish. We shopped more, BC we're good at that. Then that night, we went to Burger King and saw Calendar Girls... Such a funny movie. "We aren't naked, we're nude. Nude is art, while naked is trashy" oh I was laughing so hard. Sunday was church and seeing Heather, Ben and Jonas. Her baby is coming Wednesday, yeah yeah yeah! I get to hang out w/yet another lil Jonsson! Then we went to California dreaming again and I went to play bball. Oh course on the only game she gets to see of me this year, I sprain my ankle. But its ok. I'm just glad she could be here. I love when she comes to visit. I think I don't realize how much I miss her until I see her again! Well, more to come tomorrow or soonish...
Monday, February 16, 2004
So Yet again, kristin has written a poem that I must share: Hope you enjoy...
The tears they fall on their own
Each one representing the ways I have grown
Rinsing away the old actions, emotions, thoughts,
Why were these tears even brought?
Why must growth be represented in such a painful way?
Why do we learn how not to be by being?
Why learn by doing, when we can learn by seeing?
By not doing we learn.
Or is it, by not doing we yearn?
Yearn to do.
Why do we yearn to do then learn to not?
Memories of one or the other are evoked
Either way with tears we are choked
What an odd way to live,
To hurt to do things we desire
But also to hurt over fulfilling those desires, to hurt over those experiences we acquire
To have gained the knowledge we have gained
To experience the pain we have pained…
But life would be nothing without those refreshingly cleansing tears
And those fabulous growth spurting fears
If we didn’t cry, we’d have nothing to cry about
Our hearts wouldn’t be so strong or stout
Nothing would provoke emotion if we had none.
There would be no sadness
But that means no bright happiness or gladness
We need these tears and fears, the tough learning, the aching yearning
That’s what gives us life, this insatiable desire to experience filled burning
We need the bad to have the good, we need the dark to know there is light
We need the wrong to make things right.
Well, I'll write something of my own later, but ponder that, bc its amazing!
So Yet again, kristin has written a poem that I must share: Hope you enjoy...
The tears they fall on their own
Each one representing the ways I have grown
Rinsing away the old actions, emotions, thoughts,
Why were these tears even brought?
Why must growth be represented in such a painful way?
Why do we learn how not to be by being?
Why learn by doing, when we can learn by seeing?
By not doing we learn.
Or is it, by not doing we yearn?
Yearn to do.
Why do we yearn to do then learn to not?
Memories of one or the other are evoked
Either way with tears we are choked
What an odd way to live,
To hurt to do things we desire
But also to hurt over fulfilling those desires, to hurt over those experiences we acquire
To have gained the knowledge we have gained
To experience the pain we have pained…
But life would be nothing without those refreshingly cleansing tears
And those fabulous growth spurting fears
If we didn’t cry, we’d have nothing to cry about
Our hearts wouldn’t be so strong or stout
Nothing would provoke emotion if we had none.
There would be no sadness
But that means no bright happiness or gladness
We need these tears and fears, the tough learning, the aching yearning
That’s what gives us life, this insatiable desire to experience filled burning
We need the bad to have the good, we need the dark to know there is light
We need the wrong to make things right.
Well, I'll write something of my own later, but ponder that, bc its amazing!
13 February 2004
Friday 13 February 2004
I'm supposed to put in something short, to the point, and introspective. So demanding! I guess really what I want to say is that "Summer of 69" is a fantastic song! Maybe not introspective, but with someone on helium talking in the background makes it a little hard. So if you ever want a good time, buy Christy a helium balloon and have her sing something from Wizard of Oz (aka, the lollipop song). Other thoughts? The Lollipop Guild can't be half bad if Christy's a representative. YEAH, BABY. Also, if you're in Maryland and reading this, lucky you because Karen's coming for spring break. Also, they anchor helium balloons with cement rocks. Little weird. Maybe more later, bye.
I'm supposed to put in something short, to the point, and introspective. So demanding! I guess really what I want to say is that "Summer of 69" is a fantastic song! Maybe not introspective, but with someone on helium talking in the background makes it a little hard. So if you ever want a good time, buy Christy a helium balloon and have her sing something from Wizard of Oz (aka, the lollipop song). Other thoughts? The Lollipop Guild can't be half bad if Christy's a representative. YEAH, BABY. Also, if you're in Maryland and reading this, lucky you because Karen's coming for spring break. Also, they anchor helium balloons with cement rocks. Little weird. Maybe more later, bye.
09 February 2004
Monday February 9, 2004
I was reading Nan's zanga page earlier today and she had this thing written about what she wanted people to say about her if she died; her reply was awe inspiring and made me want to delve into the Word more. Well, when I do finally pass from this life I want people to say "Christy was a woman who sought the Lord. She strove to learn and share the love of Christ. Through humor and quiet compassion, pointed people towards the cross." that's it, simple and to the point. But, would everyone I know say that? Because that's how it should be. Whether they are Christians or not, they should say the exact same thing about my life.
Tonight's BCM message really stirred that feeling in me. In Acts 4:23-31, Peter and John had their life threatened. If that happened to me, I'd be running and retreating away. Yet, those men prayed scripture and asked the Lord to allow them to continue speaking the Truth with Boldness. While sitting there I wrote that: "I want to be a bold woman proclaiming Jesus to the Lost world around me, not just today but my while life." We have so many opportunities to proclaim Jesus on our campus' and with friends but, I for one, am terrified to do this. Jesus, please give me the courage to spread your truth throughout this world, one step at a time.
I was reading Nan's zanga page earlier today and she had this thing written about what she wanted people to say about her if she died; her reply was awe inspiring and made me want to delve into the Word more. Well, when I do finally pass from this life I want people to say "Christy was a woman who sought the Lord. She strove to learn and share the love of Christ. Through humor and quiet compassion, pointed people towards the cross." that's it, simple and to the point. But, would everyone I know say that? Because that's how it should be. Whether they are Christians or not, they should say the exact same thing about my life.
Tonight's BCM message really stirred that feeling in me. In Acts 4:23-31, Peter and John had their life threatened. If that happened to me, I'd be running and retreating away. Yet, those men prayed scripture and asked the Lord to allow them to continue speaking the Truth with Boldness. While sitting there I wrote that: "I want to be a bold woman proclaiming Jesus to the Lost world around me, not just today but my while life." We have so many opportunities to proclaim Jesus on our campus' and with friends but, I for one, am terrified to do this. Jesus, please give me the courage to spread your truth throughout this world, one step at a time.
08 February 2004
Sunday February 8, 2004
This was such an amazing weekend! Friday, what did I do? Oh right, I went ballroom dancing and then to dinner with Brian. He's such a shy boy. But the shyness was kinda sweet. The waltz was so fun (1, 2, 3... 1, 2, 3) ahhh. I'm actually gonna start taking dance lessons, YEAH! Then Saturday was supposed to be my "do nothing day" haha well it was anything BUT that. I went to best buy and got a walkman to jog with and the new Kenny Chesney CD (oh so good). Then I got back just in time to go tour the Aiken House with Ashley and Rachel. Yeah for Jeff getting us in for Free!!! Then I went and saw MIRACLE... Which is good but not as good as Big Fish with Bridgit. And then I arrived back in time to change and go to the PLEX with the BCM gang. Haha way to get out groove on! Today it was so hard to get up to go to church. But afterwards the Shores took Karen, her dad and I out to California Dreaming for my bday! So good. Then Karen and I studied at Starbucks and it was probably the best time we've had together since we've been back. Talking and laughing, but having an easy flow and not being all philosophical. Eavesdropping on other convos, laughing at the lady who's pants did NOT fit at all, and then discovering MARVIN THE PARANOID ANDROID! haha. Well, I just want to thank everyone who was a part of this amazing weekend that flew by like none-other! Ok well, til next time...
This was such an amazing weekend! Friday, what did I do? Oh right, I went ballroom dancing and then to dinner with Brian. He's such a shy boy. But the shyness was kinda sweet. The waltz was so fun (1, 2, 3... 1, 2, 3) ahhh. I'm actually gonna start taking dance lessons, YEAH! Then Saturday was supposed to be my "do nothing day" haha well it was anything BUT that. I went to best buy and got a walkman to jog with and the new Kenny Chesney CD (oh so good). Then I got back just in time to go tour the Aiken House with Ashley and Rachel. Yeah for Jeff getting us in for Free!!! Then I went and saw MIRACLE... Which is good but not as good as Big Fish with Bridgit. And then I arrived back in time to change and go to the PLEX with the BCM gang. Haha way to get out groove on! Today it was so hard to get up to go to church. But afterwards the Shores took Karen, her dad and I out to California Dreaming for my bday! So good. Then Karen and I studied at Starbucks and it was probably the best time we've had together since we've been back. Talking and laughing, but having an easy flow and not being all philosophical. Eavesdropping on other convos, laughing at the lady who's pants did NOT fit at all, and then discovering MARVIN THE PARANOID ANDROID! haha. Well, I just want to thank everyone who was a part of this amazing weekend that flew by like none-other! Ok well, til next time...
04 February 2004
Wednesday February 4, 2004
The pensive mood has struck again. Life is getting much better here, yet I feel like I'm losing something too. I've become more outgoing in BCM, people who for some reason thought I was shy are seeing the real me. HAHA, for those who know me well, you know I'm not so much the shy kid I can appear to be! Playing bball, chillin with new people and going on that retreat have really helped incorporate me into the group and feel connected. It's like I run into BCM people everywhere... Yeah for taking over the campus!! However, I feel like I'm slowly losing the 1 valuable friendship I made here last semester. And not even really that I'm losing it, but that it's morphing into something different, something I cant quite interpret yet. For a while, we hung out constantly, and its like this semester, we don't need each other in the same way. I really hope that isnt the case...
A great Beatles song comes to mind:
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay. Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away. Oh, I believe in yesterday.
On a lighter note... Does anyone know what to wear to go ballroom dancing? Some have said "a skirt" and yeah, that's a big NO! :) Would anyone be abject to dress pants, platform shoes and a sleeveless button-down collared shirt?
Also, Nan went w/me to Kickin chicken tonight, bc apparently y'all think that it's a crime to have lived in Charleston for a semester and not have gone, well it was quite good. And... They played Beatles music the whole time, big plus!!!
Oh oh oh, my other big news: Mom is coming in like a week! So that should be way exciting.
The pensive mood has struck again. Life is getting much better here, yet I feel like I'm losing something too. I've become more outgoing in BCM, people who for some reason thought I was shy are seeing the real me. HAHA, for those who know me well, you know I'm not so much the shy kid I can appear to be! Playing bball, chillin with new people and going on that retreat have really helped incorporate me into the group and feel connected. It's like I run into BCM people everywhere... Yeah for taking over the campus!! However, I feel like I'm slowly losing the 1 valuable friendship I made here last semester. And not even really that I'm losing it, but that it's morphing into something different, something I cant quite interpret yet. For a while, we hung out constantly, and its like this semester, we don't need each other in the same way. I really hope that isnt the case...
A great Beatles song comes to mind:
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay. Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away. Oh, I believe in yesterday.
On a lighter note... Does anyone know what to wear to go ballroom dancing? Some have said "a skirt" and yeah, that's a big NO! :) Would anyone be abject to dress pants, platform shoes and a sleeveless button-down collared shirt?
Also, Nan went w/me to Kickin chicken tonight, bc apparently y'all think that it's a crime to have lived in Charleston for a semester and not have gone, well it was quite good. And... They played Beatles music the whole time, big plus!!!
Oh oh oh, my other big news: Mom is coming in like a week! So that should be way exciting.
03 February 2004
Tuesday February 3, 2004
First off, I'd like to thank everyone for an awesome bday! The cards and calls and such things were amazing!!! Right now, I'm sitting here listening to calming music, with all the lights off and 3 candles on... ahh. One of the candles being appraently from a french market! so pretty! And no, being 20 doesnt feel older, yet I feel like I've matured a lot this semester and last, so maybe I'm just older in general, but still young at heart! Played some bball tonight: 5 girls and 5 guys, haha it was so fun! Cant wait to play again. But anyways, this isnt what I wanted to write about.
This weekend was a great weekend. I debated for over a month whether or not to go on this retreat and finally decided to go. And though its probably sounds really bad, I'm kinda glad my best friend down here didnt go, bc it forced me to be outgoing and be the self that I remember being, and it was really nice for a weekend just to be loud and outgoing and stuff. Though, as you all know, I do love being pensive!!! But God was just so amazing. It's weird, its like the more I study, the more I want to study. God is just drawing my closer and its so powerful. The message all weekend was "going deep". Drawing the message of the cross into a more meaningful part of your life. I've been praying for brokenness lately, and apparently He's been answering that! Brokenness is a funny thing. I dont feel small or insignificant, but rather see how much I need Him for everything in life.
Also, if anyone thinks about it, can you pray for a few of my friends who are just starting to ask the tough-God questions. It would be the most awesome thing to seem them come to Christ!!! So keep these people in your prayers!
First off, I'd like to thank everyone for an awesome bday! The cards and calls and such things were amazing!!! Right now, I'm sitting here listening to calming music, with all the lights off and 3 candles on... ahh. One of the candles being appraently from a french market! so pretty! And no, being 20 doesnt feel older, yet I feel like I've matured a lot this semester and last, so maybe I'm just older in general, but still young at heart! Played some bball tonight: 5 girls and 5 guys, haha it was so fun! Cant wait to play again. But anyways, this isnt what I wanted to write about.
This weekend was a great weekend. I debated for over a month whether or not to go on this retreat and finally decided to go. And though its probably sounds really bad, I'm kinda glad my best friend down here didnt go, bc it forced me to be outgoing and be the self that I remember being, and it was really nice for a weekend just to be loud and outgoing and stuff. Though, as you all know, I do love being pensive!!! But God was just so amazing. It's weird, its like the more I study, the more I want to study. God is just drawing my closer and its so powerful. The message all weekend was "going deep". Drawing the message of the cross into a more meaningful part of your life. I've been praying for brokenness lately, and apparently He's been answering that! Brokenness is a funny thing. I dont feel small or insignificant, but rather see how much I need Him for everything in life.
Also, if anyone thinks about it, can you pray for a few of my friends who are just starting to ask the tough-God questions. It would be the most awesome thing to seem them come to Christ!!! So keep these people in your prayers!
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