Tuesday February 3, 2004
First off, I'd like to thank everyone for an awesome bday! The cards and calls and such things were amazing!!! Right now, I'm sitting here listening to calming music, with all the lights off and 3 candles on... ahh. One of the candles being appraently from a french market! so pretty! And no, being 20 doesnt feel older, yet I feel like I've matured a lot this semester and last, so maybe I'm just older in general, but still young at heart! Played some bball tonight: 5 girls and 5 guys, haha it was so fun! Cant wait to play again. But anyways, this isnt what I wanted to write about.
This weekend was a great weekend. I debated for over a month whether or not to go on this retreat and finally decided to go. And though its probably sounds really bad, I'm kinda glad my best friend down here didnt go, bc it forced me to be outgoing and be the self that I remember being, and it was really nice for a weekend just to be loud and outgoing and stuff. Though, as you all know, I do love being pensive!!! But God was just so amazing. It's weird, its like the more I study, the more I want to study. God is just drawing my closer and its so powerful. The message all weekend was "going deep". Drawing the message of the cross into a more meaningful part of your life. I've been praying for brokenness lately, and apparently He's been answering that! Brokenness is a funny thing. I dont feel small or insignificant, but rather see how much I need Him for everything in life.
Also, if anyone thinks about it, can you pray for a few of my friends who are just starting to ask the tough-God questions. It would be the most awesome thing to seem them come to Christ!!! So keep these people in your prayers!