Jeremy Camp Lyrics

Hey, just a few lyrics (promise not the whole song) that are bringing my focus into the right place:

Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see it

Well because this broken road prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears You've been so faithful for all my years

With the one breath You make me. Your grace covers all I do ~ Walk By Faith

Holy fire burn away my desire,

for anything that is not of you and is of me
I want more of you and less of me empty me, empty me
fill, wont you fill me with you, with you ~Empty Me

All that I am is for you My Savior

I live by your word and surrender to you

Here where I stand in this moment father

My spirit has been renewed I surrender to you ~I Surrender to You

Christmas Mood

Ok, so I've been listening to Christmas music tonight (yeah yeah yeah it's early, but it's so fun!) and this song is making me smile right now.

Oh yeah yeah... Last night I took a walk in the snow,

Couples holdin hands, places to go,

Seems like everyone but me is in love

Santa can you hear me? I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss,

I sent it off, it just said this: "I know exactly what I want this year"

Santa can you hear me? I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold,

Maybe Maybe, He'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing,

Tell me my true love is here He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my Christmas tree I'll be waiting here

Santa that's my only wish this year

Oh yeah.. Yeah Yeah...Christmas Eve, I just can't sleep

Would I be wrong for takin a peek Cuz I heard that you're comin' to town

Santa can you hear me? I really hope that you're on your way

With something special for me in your sleigh

Oh please make my wish come true,

Santa can you hear me?I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold

Baby, baby, baby, baby We'll be all alone under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me? I have been so good this year,

All I want is one thing Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me Underneath my Christmas tree

I'll be waiting here Santa that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time (oh yeah) Bring me love I can call all mine (oh yeah)

Dreams and Wishes

Have you ever had something that you really want, but don't know how to go about getting it? That is the predicament that I find myself in? What I currently have is good, but I want more. Why am I scared of this you ask... Well it could make things weird. Some of you know exactly that I'm referring to, so yeah, dono what to do. This is something I've never felt before, and you know what, I kinda like it. I feel like I'm going to be sick, but then I get a goofy smile and apparently I giggled (whoa baby, that's not a good sign). I want to either know it will or wont happen. Oh gesh. Ok enough of this

Quotes to Ponder

Make up your mind to stand for what is right-- even if everyone you know is going the other way.

Stand for what is right!

I know it's not easy. It's tough. You just have to do the work.

Who said it would be easy? What's the big deal when you've done something that was easy?

When you love someone you do what is BEST for them even if it hurts sometimes.

Interesting quotes huh? I thought so at least. The first one really applies to college life. A lot of the time it sucks to be the one standing alone, but if you are standing for the right thing, stand proud. Homework is stupid, but it's gotta be done. And the last one, yeah, we all know about that one.

Monday: just blues or really dreary?

So the pensive side of me has returned tonight. Not really sure where it came from, but it's here nonetheless. These Matchbox 20 lyrics sum a lot up "And we always say, it would be good to go away, someday. But if there's nothing there to make things change. If it's the same for you I'll just hang" Also I saw the end of Everwood, forgot how much I like that show and Ephraim (the main character) wrote "I hate change, but I know it's good for me, so I try to embrace it as best as I can." Has life changed that much lately? Or is it going to change that much soon? They say change makes us better... Does anyone know why that is? Looking back over the past 3 or 4 years, life barely has anything that remains constant. It's like everything is derived from a part of my former life, and sometimes I am finding myself longing for a hint of that life. A few of those friends are still there, but most are just memories now. I don't want to be just a memory to anyone. So many relationships come and go, sparkle and then fizzle, whether friendships or whatever. It's horrible. But one thing seemed like a synthetic has become the most genuine. Relationships built with the Christ as the foundation will not dwindle into nonentities. They may be repositioned in your life, but never absent. The friends who I used to run and hide from, because they spoke truth, are the only ones I still communicate with. They are the ones that still influence my life and the woman I am becoming. Friends: thank you for amending my ways and yanking me towards the Cross when I least wanted it. Thanks for the time, love and most importantly, the foundation built on the Rock! My prayer would that be that I can do for others like you all have done for me. Be there beside someone and pray them through, and watch them come to Christ and then grow in Him. So thank you all for the greatest love ever... Sharing the love of our Savior!

Friday I had to work 6-close right? Closing is supposed to be 12 for the coffee bar. Ok, well around 12:45 I'm just about to mop and be done (everything else is cleaned up) and like 30 stupid people come in. I'm not saying their stupid bc they wanted coffee so late, but bc they really were. I was like "the espresso machine is already shut down, but I can get you anything else" and they kept asking for mochas and stuff. I was like gesh. So I broke down a made hot chocolate and then Robin came to help but only made it worse but after my telling him that the machine was closed, forgetting and ringing them up for everything. so I made their stupid drinks and was like "Ok its 1am robin, everything else is done, I'm going home" and left. haha.
I was supposed to close again tonight, but around 12, Curry called and was like "hey Robin forgot to schedule a midshifter, can you come in and not work tonight?" I was like "HECK YA" thinking that midshift is usually a dead shift which would have been really nice after last nights insane lines. Well, I couldnt have been more wrong. For some reason today was the busiest day ever. I was alone for 6 hours in the coffee house with lines stretching out the door for most of the time. Gesh it was stressful. But I got just about 100 bucks in tips in those two shifts which is quite nice. cant complain about that. So tonight I paid for Lindsey's movie because today while I was working she was standing there telling people how the line never stopped and how I was all alone, and so people tipped more. haha so great.
So while everyone went to Neon Moon tonight, I was exhausted from work. So Lindsey, Kdub, Jennifer and I went to see Shall We Dance?. It was such an amazing movie. I'd recommend it to everyone. Though it looks cheesy, and yeah there are a few cheesy parts, for the most part its really sweet. Richard Gere doesnt cheat on his wife and there is no sex. Imagine a movie w/out sex. Can you think of a single movie lately that you saw w/out sex? Yeah me either. Ok sleep well my friends

the rest of the story

ok, already wrote all about Sunday. Then Monday morning I woke up around 7 and had to go to the bathroom. Well when I got back into bed I kept hearing Keturah talk and couldnt decide if she was on the phone or talking in her sleep. So I stared at Leigh-Ann til she woke up and she couldnt tell either. So I went over to Keturah and started poking her saying SHUTUP SHUTUP haha. So she stoped talking and then we hear the clicking of the text messaging. Well Kristen yells "stop talking to rudy this early" haha Keturah was talking to her boyfriend at 7am! gesh
Monday was uneventful, just kinda drove home and chilled. Tuesday I got to babysit Jonas and Shae. They came here and were so cute. We played on the playground, went for a walk, and I taught Jonas to bang on the wall w/poster holders. It was great fun!
Wednesday I drove to Columbia and met Katie. It was so random. We met at a random exit off 77 and parked near the USC football stadium and ate dinner at some Lizard place that I cant remember. So after our HUGE dinner we went to the bathroom, for fear of having to stop alone when she drove the rest of the way to Paris Island to watch Brian graduate. Well part way down 26 she calls and is like "get off the road, get off the road" so I'm like ok. We ended up getting off at this way sketch exit that had an adult video store that was full of truckers. It was great fun, totally worth the drive. I miss her a lot. She helps loosen me up so that I can have real fun!
The rest of the week (today) has been uneventful. Studying and such. boo. ok well now that you are all updated on my life, its time to go relax.

Fall Break...

Hey, So this might have been the best weekend ever! For Fall break, Leigh-Ann, Keturah, Kristen and I decided to go to Disney. Saturday afternoon we piled into the Envoy and left. We finally pitstoped for gas/bathroom about 5 hours later when we were on I-4. Haha there was sex in the bathroon and Keturah left that stall for me. Gee Thanks. What a wonderful thing to walk through. :) We got to Orlando around 9ish, checked into the hotel and headed out for dinner. Had some IHOP then went into a tatoo shop and then into "everything 1.99 store" to browse around. We came back and went to bed I think. Then in the morning we departed for DISNEY!!!!!!!!!! Got there and it was so cute, Keturah had never been and all she wanted was to meet Aladin, but we couldnt find him, actually we didnt see any characters. But hey, its all ok bc there were virtually no lines and we rode EVERYTHING except for the choo choo mountain thingy bc it was broke and It's a small world bc it was closed. evil! Do you know how cool space mountain is? Oh and the space ranger game? Man, Leigh-Ann was driving the thing and shooting like a pro. One of our last rides was a ghost thing and it was "scary" but hey, we got taken over by a ghost. For our last ride, we rerode splash mountain, always a favorite. On the way out we went shopping and got mugs and mugs and oh did I mention mugs. Kristen bought the whole store out. It was so worth it all. For dinner we headed to Planet Hollywood in downtown Disney next to Paradise Island... ok there's so much more to write, but in the AM!

FALL BREAK!!!!

All Glory Honor and Praise...

This weekend was such an amazing worshipful time. There were about 60 people from CofC and the Citadel gathered together in Garden City to learn more about Jesus and to connect as a body of believers. Today was the best though. We had "church" this morning and instead of what we expect as church, we just had Bible verses all over the room and went around individually praying and such. Such an amazing time. Don't think I've ever spent that much time in continual prayer before. Ok, well due to the lack of sleep from the weekend, I'm gonna go to bed early. night world

2 Funny Stories

1. So my mom called last night and was like "I have something to tell you about your dog." That usually means Daisy hurt herself again, and the way mom said it made me think it was really bad. She goes on to say "well your father turned the shower on this afternoon and then went to grab something. While he was turned around he heard this weird noise" and this freaks me out because if Daisy hurts herself really badly (her back still) then I have to take her to be put to sleep)... "when your father turned around, Daisy had gotten into the shower" How cute is that!?!? My Daisy-May, who hates getting a bath, got herself into the shower to get all clean. That's a first, so cute!

2. Had a dream about Calvin College last night. Maybe it's because my bed was cold and oops, I knocked the blanket onto the floor and didn't realize it. But in the dream, it was snowing and we were in the KH lot (we being Rach (or maybe it was Dena, way to mix 2 schools I know), Kristin, Justin a tow truck and I). But I was only there visiting and we were coming back from somewhere but Rach decided to just get into this random truck and drive it. Only she put it in reverse insteada drive and hit the tow truck. So, we started running, and he was chasing us. But then Kristin was like "this is a dream, just make the tow truck go away" and it did, poofed away. Then I woke up. Is that weird to anyone else?!?! Ok just wondering

What a Monday. Studied all day yesterday for my DE test. Then after studying Rob and I decided to walk to the exam and study on the way . Once we got on campus we ran into Bonnie and Cate and they had gotten back their abstract exams. Ok, so we didn't want those back yet, at least I didnt. So went to DE, took the test, hard but ok. Got back the Abstract test... BAD! Then realized that oops, while studying for DE I had forgotten about the linear quiz. arg. Also, apparently I wa supposed to take Linear BEFORE DE, gesh, that woulda been great. Studied all afternoon, went to BCM, called Rob about our abstract hw due tomorrow, since he did so well on the test. So he called around 10ish and came over and we worked on our homework til 1130 I guess. Maybe we faked it, but hey, it's an answer, and that works. Also, in case anyone wants to get a great cd thats been out for a while... Moulin Rouge Soundtrack... go buy it. It's amazing and great to study by!

feeling slightly more normal today. Maybe it's because of this afternoon, which I have to say thank you for! It was really great to just feel like myself if only for an afternoon. But hopefully, it means it's the upward swing. I have to say that the way I have been feeling is an answer to prayer though. I prayed that Jesus would just break me down, and here I am, less than a full week later, much more broken. So though it sucks, it's a huge praise!!