Monday: just blues or really dreary?

So the pensive side of me has returned tonight. Not really sure where it came from, but it's here nonetheless. These Matchbox 20 lyrics sum a lot up "And we always say, it would be good to go away, someday. But if there's nothing there to make things change. If it's the same for you I'll just hang" Also I saw the end of Everwood, forgot how much I like that show and Ephraim (the main character) wrote "I hate change, but I know it's good for me, so I try to embrace it as best as I can." Has life changed that much lately? Or is it going to change that much soon? They say change makes us better... Does anyone know why that is? Looking back over the past 3 or 4 years, life barely has anything that remains constant. It's like everything is derived from a part of my former life, and sometimes I am finding myself longing for a hint of that life. A few of those friends are still there, but most are just memories now. I don't want to be just a memory to anyone. So many relationships come and go, sparkle and then fizzle, whether friendships or whatever. It's horrible. But one thing seemed like a synthetic has become the most genuine. Relationships built with the Christ as the foundation will not dwindle into nonentities. They may be repositioned in your life, but never absent. The friends who I used to run and hide from, because they spoke truth, are the only ones I still communicate with. They are the ones that still influence my life and the woman I am becoming. Friends: thank you for amending my ways and yanking me towards the Cross when I least wanted it. Thanks for the time, love and most importantly, the foundation built on the Rock! My prayer would that be that I can do for others like you all have done for me. Be there beside someone and pray them through, and watch them come to Christ and then grow in Him. So thank you all for the greatest love ever... Sharing the love of our Savior!