Life seems to be nothing but a crazy roller coaster lately. During highschool, life was perfect. I had grades, sports, friends, money, and a life that I could control. I didnt need anything, from anyone. But since graduation, all that time ago (haha jk), my life seems to have become the antithesis of my former self. Classes are harder. sports are no longer I seem to be successful at, which is hard because I was defined by that! Friends come and go, and change with each day. And money... haha right! My life was mine, I faked the motions, I was my own god. That seems like such a strange thing to say, like it should be hard, but I guess when the truth stares you blatantly in the face, its not such a hard thing to admit. But while studying James with Kate the other night, I was struck by the simple verse that most of us know. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because the testing of your faith develops perserverance. Perserverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4. How many times have I read this and just let it fade away? For the past 2 years, I have been broken; a brokenness that has matured me and tested me. Though I dont know when it will be done, God has a plan and is working it out all in His own time. This world is dark and scary, though I used to think it safe and simple, but Jesus is holding out his light, and guiding me safely in!