Monday 24 November 2003. (dated like that just for you Karen...). So, the message at BCM really seems to have struck me tonight. It came from Acts 9:1-19. Stephen talked about Ananias and about how he was "Forgotten but faithful." He made the point that God uses those who are available and willing. I rush and rush and want to be willing, but am I also making myself available to be used by Him? Another point was that God uses those w/out a title to do jobs that are vital. That means that you and I can do extraordinary things in our ordinary lives. There are ordinary people all around us who can be extraordinarily impacted by hearing the simple truth that we have. How much can they benefit from the message we have to offer? Finally, anyone's took a risk for the kingdom. He went to see Saul, a known persecutor of Christians, and took a giant leap of Faith, went and changed my life. Without Saul's conversion, he would have not preached to the Gentiles, and if he hadn't preached to the Gentiles, I would not know the saving grace of my Savior. I want to be braver for the kingdom, more trusting of Christs' sovereignty, have more faith... These are things that most Christians strive for, but I guess tonight, I just really struck me that in order to accomplish any of these tasks, I must first and foremost work on my personal relationship. I need more conversations with Him, more time with Him, more of Him in my life. That is such a struggle, to constantly need Jesus, but it should be the simplest... eh... but it's not. So, my prayer this week is just to spend a little more time everyday with Him. And Thank you to those of you who have been keeping me accountable. Those who have been praying for me for years, and those who are just now helping me draw closer to Him... Thank you so much!