Ponderings

Yes, when I Ponder, its usually not a good thing. But its 1030 on a Sat, and I just got home. Babysat and all my friends are already out. So here I am, talking to Chase and Aaron and drinking a Mikes... Therefore Pondering MUST occur, it is not optional. Judy asked me tonight if I've ever felt that I've been in love. I dono how to answer that. Yes and No. I've been mentally attracted to some and physically attracted to others. I've really wanted to be in the presence of some and honestly, when I really really like someone, I get so confused that everything just gets turned upside down. It's times like these when I wish Nana was alive to just talk and share her stories about dating tons of guys when she was dating my Gumpy and how she was proposed to like 8 times (one was the same time my Gump proposed. Crazy huh? Yeah. She was a playa back in the day! Weird to think of grandparents as playas... but i've come across some pretty darn interesting stuff from when she was my age! hahahaha GO NANA! Ok I give up. I'm done writing for now. going back to the reality that is real now