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For the longest time, it was my who wanted you. Then I started to move on, and you came back around. I started down that path once more, and yet again, you were the confused one. We danced in circles, around and around and around. Finally, you changed your mind and wanted me too. It was amazing. Together at last. Then it happened. It was like you wanted to be so serious, or you were so there that it scared me. Haha its like I'm the guy, the one who was scared off by it all. I dont have a clue how that happened, or why. But then we started arguing and that sucked. Because all I wanted to do was talk to you, but was scared that somehow it would lead you on more, which frightened me again. I get more mad at you than anyone I know. It's so weird. You make me so mad, then say the sweetest things that just make me smile all day, and want to tell my friends! Yet I want to be around you too! gesh. So that is my confusion! Confused about how that is possible and whether or not I'm ready for you! You and I decided that we compete and maybe we were doing that to make the other want to come back to get together. And the other day you said that when I'm nervous I just talk... for example on the beach... and no one knows that about me! They know I pace and stuff, but not that, so for you to have just picked that up, was crazy! Man, real life is hard huh? Sorry! So, we try to talk and say these things, but I suck at it, it has always gone better to write what I'm thinking down. So, its not confusion about whether or not I like you, but whether I'm ready for that... ready for you I guess. Ok. thats all the insights into my head you get today! Hopefully its enough