Monday January 19, 2004
So, I've been back in Charleston for a week now, well 3 hours short of a week actually and I've been pretty busy. The weather has been amazing though. Yesterday I spent the whole day outside running and playing bball. Today was adventure day with BCM and I went rock climbing, oh so sore. But it was great. Kinda having a hard time readjusting to being here. It's like it's normal, yet I cant quite place what the deal is. Maybe mom is right and I need a more diverse pool of friends here. Not that my current friends are bad, but maybe I just need to widen and enlargen the group. Though being back is good too. At home, I so easily fall back into my life in which I didn't prioritize God at all. Since I've been back I've been reading "My Utmost For His Highest" Some of ideas put forth by Oswald Chambers have really struck me. He wrote "God brings me into the proper relationship with Himself so that I can understand His call, and then I serve Him on my own out of a motivation of absolute love... The Son of God reveals Himself in me, and out of devotion to Him service becomes my everyday way of life." Another one was about being alone with God. What a thought, that I can be alone with the God who is everywhere, always!! "When God gets us alone through suffering, heartbreak, temptation, disappointment, sickness, or by thwarted desires, a broken friendship, or a new friendship- when He gets us absolutely alone, and we are totally speechless, unable to ask even one question, then He begins to teach us." Am I ever totally speechless with Him? Am I ever totally speechless in general? Have I ever been broken to that point? Sometimes I think that my college experience has broken my like this, but have I really been like the song that says "let my pride fall down, I'm a little man"? I want to be broken and little in front of Him so I can have the desire of a Child to learn more and more and be like Him everyday. Well, time to do a little work before class tomorrow... But be back to write more soon.