FRIDAY!!!
Went to class this morning, skipped Linear and Karen, Leigh-Ann and I watched Moulin Rouge. It was such a great movie. Then I worked, and as per usual, Nan, LA and Cassi came, only when I got off poor Cassi's car had been booted, so we all had to pay to unboot it.
I have to thank you (you know who you are) for listening tonight. I've been having a really hard time with something lately and didn't really even realize that it was my problem until tonight. I understand completely that Charleston, though my home, still has a lot of racial inequality. It's kind of hitting me lately how much of it there is. I didn't even notice it much last year, well I did, but not like recently. I grew up being taught that everyone was the same, and most people here just weren't raised like that. It's just a fact. My friend Shawn used to always say that he was black and I was white and we would joke about it a lot. So one day I put a black sheet of paper up against him and a white one up against me and was like, see neither of us match the sheets of paper. I guess that is just how my mind works. Yes, I do see the difference, but I don't think it necessarily matters so much. Maybe it's trite to say it's what's on the inside that matters, but isnt that true... at least to some extent? It's not like my endeavor here is to change the world, or even anyone. Just I guess what is happening is that remarks that seem racial leave a pungent taste in my mouth. I hear them, even if it was just a passing comment, it stays with me. I'm like "did they just say that?" and I know it's how people were raised here. So, yeah, it upsets me when people say things like that, a lot, but I also know that to them it's normal. But does that make it right? It doesn't mean I love anyone less, it's just difficult for me to hear it and not be shocked. Guess I'm just a product of my society! haha jk jk whoa, that was a deep entry, but as Nan and Leigh-Ann always say "WO AI NI"