When did this happen? I felt it coming on Saturday and thought it would go away, but it didn't. Great. Something to look forward to for tomorrow. Maybe this fun feeling can stay longer. You know it's real even if you can't define it if your mom calls and without saying anything she knows.
Please don't try to guess how I'm feeling. You can't understand unless you are Karen, or maybe Nan, maybe you can... I think you can you just don't like to express how it felt. It's hard to say that, but you all haven't really seen me like this, and you can't really sympathize unless you really have been here. The wall is sinking and I'm stuck in a cavorous hole with no way out. Where is the ladder out? You found it for me before... do you know where it is now? If you don't, can you just stay up top and keep talking me through? Don't let me go. I hate this.
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Hey you ~ I know where you're at, and I promise I won't let you stay there. I'm sorry I missed your call when you needed me. You can still consider me an on-duty friend, because I love the way we've been there for each other. I think you know how much it means to know that there's someone in Charleston to understand and help you pick yourself up when you hit rock bottom - that's the person you are for me, and the person I hope I can be for you. I don't know if you've read anything by George Macdonald, but he's one of my favorite Christian thinkers: "How often we look upon God as our last and feeblest resource! We go to Him because we have nowhere else to go. And then we learn that the storms of life have driven us, not upon the rocks, but into the desired haven." I'm looking forward to our time tomorrow, and until then, praying for you. Also... the last book I read for my devotions was Hosea. This was my favorite part: "Come, let us return to the Lord. For He has torn us, but He will heal us: He has wounded us, but He will bandage us. He will revive us after two days; He will raise us up on the third day that we may live before Him. So let us press on to know the Lord. His going forth is as certain as the dawn; And He will come to us like the rain, like the spring rains that water the earth." (6:1-3) Love you, Christy Shockley.
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