Worst Vacation Ever!

Hey,

So I got home around midnight just about a week ago and what an eventful week it has been. Discovered I received my very first D on a report card (evil abstract math!). However the 303 (next class) teacher emailed me a pratice test and will help me along based on that work. Well, I found out about that on Thursday and thought that life was pretty crappy at that moment. Apparently, it can/does get worse. Monday night, I went to meet Katie Kern and Lindsay Wallace at AACS. In the parking lot, I hit black ice, skidded and my car smacked into the curb/fence in the Guam part of the lot. Tried to drive it home, it didn't happen. Got it towed to the Honda Dealer and they said it was $2,100 in damage, so basically it's totaled. Gesh, my lil baby Josephine crumpled. Today I got her towed home and backed her into her final spot. Just glancing at her, it looks like the tire is a little messed up and the quarter panel is cracked, but apparently the entire front end stuff on the left is broken. So I have to figure out a way to sell her. Mom said it was God's protection that I didn't hit another car because I could have been really hurt seeing as how my car just folded up! :( Also, it happened in a time when I'm home, and am getting Kate's car in 2 weeks. (ok mom is playing her singing ornament over and over....) Another protection is that I only hurt the civic and not another car or a person.

On a slightly happier note: my mom always wanted my grandfathers Mercedes. They don't get along but that's what she has always wanted, his car. Well, he offered it to my dad, who turned it down. Suffice to say, mom was mad at him... Well, the man he was going to sell it to fell through (didn't have enough money) so he told me to make him an offer. I said I have $10 in my pocket and he said "deal." So hopefully, I bought my mom that car! Which would be a sweet deal. Car for her, Car for me! Ok, enough rambling about this week.

Home

Just in case you are wondering, I am in Annapolis. Back for christmas break and not really doing anything. I am quite enjoying the fact that I do not have anything to do and therefore I really am doing nothing. What a wonderful vacation. Ok back to doing nothing, maybe I'll actually write something productive tomorrow...

Finally, my Casey girl gets up close and personal with my camera 

Daisy and my Drew man! 

Softball. Spring 2004. Game over. Did we win? prolly not, but who cares 

Me and Nan. This might be from one of our first times hanging out. Who knew what would come from that! 

Nancy Jane... a typical Picture 

Yeah for Minney Mouse's House! 

Fun Hats in Disney during Fall Break! 

Me in mom's tight lil z3! Top down in freezing weather! 

You are the Loyalist
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You have strong relationships and are intensely loyal.
People find you easy to love and care for.
You like your world to be stable and secure, no surprises.
You're cautious. You prefer your inner circle to the outside world.

Been a while

So exams are almost over. Abstract Math, Astronomy, Anthropology and Differential Equations... all finished. However, it's still iffy as to whether I have to retake abstract or not. Yuck. Well, now I get to chill until Wednesday and my linear algebra final. Yuck for that too. The material isn't horrible, but somehow I don't do well. Then it's time to drive home.

Nan is staying with me Tuesday night which I'm way excited about. My last night in Charleston for a while, and the last night I get to be with my best friend for a really long time. She is scared that she will be forgotten. But how can I forget her? She is a huge part of my life and I'm not going to let her be forgotten, ever! My Nanners... you might be 1/2 way around the world, but you will still be with us and we will be with you, always! We might even love you enough to check on Michael for ya! You are going to have an amazing time. Your fear about being forgotten is impossible bc we are sisters. Sisters in the Lord (and yeah, it sounds cheesy, but it's a real thing) and that bond doesnt just disappear in 3 months. just in case you were wondering!

So this Rob thing is killing me. I really like him, and pretty sure he likes me, but it's like neither of us will make the first move. We sit really close and talk on the phone at least every day. Ok, I'm going to make a move tomorrow when he finishes his differential equations exam and calls to tell me about it.

Maybe the most important news is that I joined Ashley River Baptist Church today. Stood infront of the entire congregation and declared that I love Jesus and want to become a member. Then I was told that I have to have believers baptism (yeah for being dunked). So yeah for that!

Last Fun Weekend in Charleston

Whats up? Friday night and Saturday night were so fun. Friday was the BCM Christmas party. We played games and ate (as baptists are good at doing) and basically hung out. Then, Keturah, Leigh-ann, Michael R, Chad and I went and rented MAN OF FIRE and lots of people came over and watched it. It was quite interesting to say the least. Then Saturday I had to work in the afternoon, but that evening was supposed to be girls night. Well, apparently Mollie invited Chad and Michael, which was ok. We went to dinner at O'Charley's and then saw the lights. Yeah, I had to squeeze into the trunk of the envoy w/the 2 citadel boys, but whatever. Sunday... we went to church, then lunch over at Judy's house, then to the mall. However, someone should have told leigh-ann and I that there was a parade down Broad street Sunday afternoon bc we couldnt get backto our apartment complex bc everything was baracaded off. Finally, someone else must have been fed up too bc they moved the baracade and we followed them.

Monday was the last official day of classes. But abstract class... yeah she made us have class today. So, basically my life since Sunday afternoon until Thurs at 12 (when the exam starts) is devoted to Abstract and studying for this exam, bc then the class of death.... IS OVER!!!!!

When winter comes in summer

When there's no more forever

That's when I'll stop loving you

I'm sure youve heard these words before

And I know it's hard for you to trust them once more

You're afraid it all might end in a broken heart it's scared of breaking again

Cause you gotta believe me I'll never leave you.

You'll never cry as long as I'm am there

And I will always be there You will never be without, no

That's when I'll stop loving you, yeah

As long as sunlight lights the sky

The light of love will be found in these eyes of mine

And I will shine that light for you

You're the only one I'll ever give this heart to

What I'm trying to say is nothing will change this Loving on
time you will find there Cause I will always be there

You will always have all my love

Makes You Smile

So, I checked my email and discovered that Nicole had left a post on this blog. That is so cool. She was my suitemate at Calvin for about 2 months, and she was amazing. Fun and easy going. I remember going to Meijer with her around midnight one night in my car and when we came out it had sleeted and the parking lot was empty. So I taught her to drive my car on the ice. It was scary and memorable. Just wanted to let her and all the other people from Calvin know that even though I wasnt there long, that you have impacted my life in ways you will never know. When I left, it was for wrong reasons. Though it has worked out in the end, it will always be something I regret and a time I wish I could get back to and fix.

You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This

I've got a funny feeling the moment that your lips touched mine
Something shot right through me, My heart skipped a beat in time
There's a different feel about you tonight
It's got me thinkin' lots of crazy things
I even think I saw a flash of light, It felt like electricity

You shouldn't kiss me like this unless you mean it like that
Cause I'll just close my eyes and I won't know where I'm at
We'll get lost on this dance floor
Spinnin' around and around and around

They're all watchin' us now, They think we're falling in love
They'd never believe we're just friends
When you kiss me like this I think you mean it like that
If you do baby kiss me again

Everybody swears we make the perfect pair
But dancing is as far as it goes
Girl you've never moved me quitethe way you moved me tonight
I just wanted you to know
I just wanted you to know ~Toby Keith

Praise

You said, "ask and you will receive whatever you need."

You said, "pray and I'll hear from heaven, and I'll heal your land."

You said "Your glory will fill the earthlike water the sea".

You said, "lift up your eyes;the harvest is here, the kingdom is near."

You said, "ask and I'll give the nations to you."

oh Lord, that's the cry of my heart.

distant shores and the islands will see

Lord, Let this song be my prayer. Let your Kingdom be near. Father help me to see your harvest here, in Charleston. Give me boldness to do your Will and strive after you with EVERYTHING that I am. Take my heart and let it be transformed to your will. I say "Jesus, it's all about you, I want to be fully yours" but is that true? If it's not Lord, Make it true. Make my life about enlarging your Kingdom. Amen

Great Weekend

Whats up my friends? So this weekend was amazingly fun. What a relief and stress-breaker it is to finally get a Friday and Saturday night off from work. So what did I do with all this free time you ask? Well, Friday I chilled and went running for about 45 min. It was nice not to be counting down the hours until work began. Then Kristi Ford came over and played the "knock on the wall" game with the next door neighbors. (It's actually quite amusing bc it can go on for hours!!!)

Then Saturday, I woke up and went straight to work and worked until 6. Got off and Keturah and Nan came over and we watched I AM SAM, then Rach came over and brought a friend. We went to the 9:25 showing of THE POLAR EXPRESS at the Imax (Huge screen and 3D!!!!). We all go to wear these silly glasses and such. After the movie we all went and were near the water, only Keturah had to go to the bathroom. So she and I went into this Restaurant and asked to use their bathroom. I ran into a guy I know from Abstract math! So we went to the womens room and opened the door. Only there was a man there, standing in one of the stalls w/the door wide open, just standing there peeing. Keturah and I got an eyefull. We left and waited outside and he was like "Sorry I couldnt wait." haha he was so wasted. While I was waiting for Keturah to finish, these really funny drunk girls came in and were "pee faster so we can go do more shots" "ouch, my toenail fell off" "I ripped my skirt upto my butt" Needless to say it was very hard not to laugh while I was in there with them. Anyways, that was my interesting weekend, and now it's less than 48 hours til I'm back in NAPTOWN!

Oh Gesh

So I think I have a problem. I really like Rob. A lot. I liked him before I knew he was a great Christian guy. We talk a lot and stuff and finally I've come to the conclusion that something needs to progess. Thats my story. Oh gesh. I like him a lot!

Josephine

So, today Leigh-Ann helped me take Josephine to the Honda dealer. They said there are 2 things wrong: 1) broken hydrolic clutch master cylinder and slave cylinder and 2) the CV boots are cracking. So what does that mean? the hydrolic cylinders are leaking fluid and so basically not allowing the catchpoint to catch at the right spot. The CV boots... um, the guy explained it as "have you ever hear a car 'click' when it turns? well it's bc the cv boots have broken" so I'm not exactly sure about this, but that doesn't sound so great. Well, I am getting the clutch master cylinder and slave cylinder fixed for about 450 bucks. Then it will be safe to drive home at Christmas and then get ready to sell her. Sad day, but at least she's doing better and the CV boot thing isnt a horrible problem, at least not for a while the guy said.
Other fun things today. I went to Folly Beach w/Michael Rivera. That was really fun actually. Did you know that their uniforms are really just a jacket w/fake collars and stuff. Oh gesh. haha Well, we got to Folly, and he took out his blanket and we went onto the beach and sat, watching the sunset. I dono, we just talked about a lot of stuff. Then the gnats were killing him so we walked a really long ways and then back. We ended up on the pier and walked to the end and up onto the top part and watched the water and talked about life then just sat and hung out. It was really nice. Relaxing and enjoyable I think is the right term. Also, in his cool truck is the most awesome Subwoofer. Man can that base rock. Maybe I should ride w/him when we go to Crossroads next semester with BCM! haha

Josephine

My baby, Josephine, has come to the end of her life. Well, at least her life with me. Her clutch is just about to give out and my parents have decided they do not want me to drive her home to MD. Sad that she will never sit in her spot anymore. So if you can just pray that we can get this all worked out. It looks like I'm going to be purchasing Kate Fullers car, but I can't get that until Jan 2. That still leaves me carless for over a month and no real way of getting home for Christmas. So, prayer about good decisions would be awesome. thanks

Let It All Out

Let it all out Get it all out
Rip it out Remove it
Don't be alarmed When the wound begins to bleed
Cause we're so scared to find out
What this life's all about So scared we're going to lose it
Not knowing all along That's exactly what we need

And today I will trust you with confidence
Of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me Crying out for consistency
And you said I know that this will hurt
But if I don't break your heart
Then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember the end will justify
The pain it took to get us there ~Relient K

the Other song that describes me, maybe even better is this:

I watched the proverbial sunrisecoming up over the Pacific

and you might think I'm losing my mind,

but I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am'

cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.

See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.

Stop right there. Well I never should have said that

it's the very moment thatI wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.

I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.

I'm ready to try and never become that way again

cause who I am hates who I've been. Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one. Couldn't keep to myself enough.

And the things bottled inside have finally begun

to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up. ~Relient K

HOME!

I can't wait to go home in 2 weeks. It's strange... I never want to be there, but lately I have just wanted to go home, sit on my couch and pet my dogs. Three dogs to love, 3 dogs to cuddle, and 3 dogs to adore. Nothing better than that! Somehow being around my Daisy May makes life better and just fills my heart to overflowing. My heart needs that badly. I am depleted, saddened, empty. I want to long for Christ, but am not lately. I want to do well in classes, but the more I try the worse it's becoming this semester.
It's definitely time to go home and get replenished. See Jen, who always helps put things into perspective. Go Mid Hunting with Katie. Run with dad and talk about life. Go for a walk down my street with my walkman like I've down most days for almost 9 years now. Sit beside the water and just relax. 2 weeks, I can make it. Plunge ahead with school and classes and failure until then!!!!

Why? You asked

Why do I act as I do? You asked me this and I didn't know. Actually I still don't know. For as long as I can remember, when trying to joke around I have always ended up making a blunder out of things. This is not a first, and most likely won't be a last. I have an uncanny knack of hurting people or making myself look like an idiot, time and time again. Maybe the goal should be to just stop joking around. Be the other side of me more often. Keep that desire to throw water and food, even though it makes most laugh, to curb it and make it go away. Time to officially grow up huh? I don't want to be seen as 5. I want to be an adult. Maybe I need to act like it more. So as of today, old, joking self = gone. mature me = here. ok, thats enough

Strange Noises...

Haha, so my neighbors are really funny. Right now they are calling girls on speaker phone, which for some reason I can hear, and talking about ridiculous things... hmm. So yeah, fun times over here in the SJ. Maybe they will get the drift that no girls want to talk to them. They sound so funny though the wall though.
Don't really know what to write about, but I'm in a writing mood. This week is insane. Today I had to go get my chipped tooth fixed. Yeah, at the fair you can hurt yourself. But it's all good. Tomorrow will be spent in class and then studying for this horrible Abstract Math test. Wed is class, studying, prayer in our lobby, studying... Thursday is the day of death. TEST! Then mom is coming in the evening. Friday consists of class and work. Maybe it's not such an overwhelming week, but abstract math scares me.
On the plus side, it's been so warm. Today is November 1, and it was over 80 degrees out. I'm still in shorts and a t-shirt at 10pm. At this moment I am ready for thanksgiving break. Ready for my puppies and my house. It's weird, I'm not homesick like I've felt before but this is also the longest I've gone w/out seeing anyone from home. Can you believe it's November already? Because I def cant. Ok maybe that is enough writing.

Jeremy Camp Lyrics

Hey, just a few lyrics (promise not the whole song) that are bringing my focus into the right place:

Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see it

Well because this broken road prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears You've been so faithful for all my years

With the one breath You make me. Your grace covers all I do ~ Walk By Faith

Holy fire burn away my desire,

for anything that is not of you and is of me
I want more of you and less of me empty me, empty me
fill, wont you fill me with you, with you ~Empty Me

All that I am is for you My Savior

I live by your word and surrender to you

Here where I stand in this moment father

My spirit has been renewed I surrender to you ~I Surrender to You

Christmas Mood

Ok, so I've been listening to Christmas music tonight (yeah yeah yeah it's early, but it's so fun!) and this song is making me smile right now.

Oh yeah yeah... Last night I took a walk in the snow,

Couples holdin hands, places to go,

Seems like everyone but me is in love

Santa can you hear me? I signed my letter that I sealed with a kiss,

I sent it off, it just said this: "I know exactly what I want this year"

Santa can you hear me? I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold,

Maybe Maybe, He'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year and all I want is one thing,

Tell me my true love is here He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my Christmas tree I'll be waiting here

Santa that's my only wish this year

Oh yeah.. Yeah Yeah...Christmas Eve, I just can't sleep

Would I be wrong for takin a peek Cuz I heard that you're comin' to town

Santa can you hear me? I really hope that you're on your way

With something special for me in your sleigh

Oh please make my wish come true,

Santa can you hear me?I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold

Baby, baby, baby, baby We'll be all alone under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me? I have been so good this year,

All I want is one thing Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me Underneath my Christmas tree

I'll be waiting here Santa that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time (oh yeah) Bring me love I can call all mine (oh yeah)

Dreams and Wishes

Have you ever had something that you really want, but don't know how to go about getting it? That is the predicament that I find myself in? What I currently have is good, but I want more. Why am I scared of this you ask... Well it could make things weird. Some of you know exactly that I'm referring to, so yeah, dono what to do. This is something I've never felt before, and you know what, I kinda like it. I feel like I'm going to be sick, but then I get a goofy smile and apparently I giggled (whoa baby, that's not a good sign). I want to either know it will or wont happen. Oh gesh. Ok enough of this

Quotes to Ponder

Make up your mind to stand for what is right-- even if everyone you know is going the other way.

Stand for what is right!

I know it's not easy. It's tough. You just have to do the work.

Who said it would be easy? What's the big deal when you've done something that was easy?

When you love someone you do what is BEST for them even if it hurts sometimes.

Interesting quotes huh? I thought so at least. The first one really applies to college life. A lot of the time it sucks to be the one standing alone, but if you are standing for the right thing, stand proud. Homework is stupid, but it's gotta be done. And the last one, yeah, we all know about that one.

Monday: just blues or really dreary?

So the pensive side of me has returned tonight. Not really sure where it came from, but it's here nonetheless. These Matchbox 20 lyrics sum a lot up "And we always say, it would be good to go away, someday. But if there's nothing there to make things change. If it's the same for you I'll just hang" Also I saw the end of Everwood, forgot how much I like that show and Ephraim (the main character) wrote "I hate change, but I know it's good for me, so I try to embrace it as best as I can." Has life changed that much lately? Or is it going to change that much soon? They say change makes us better... Does anyone know why that is? Looking back over the past 3 or 4 years, life barely has anything that remains constant. It's like everything is derived from a part of my former life, and sometimes I am finding myself longing for a hint of that life. A few of those friends are still there, but most are just memories now. I don't want to be just a memory to anyone. So many relationships come and go, sparkle and then fizzle, whether friendships or whatever. It's horrible. But one thing seemed like a synthetic has become the most genuine. Relationships built with the Christ as the foundation will not dwindle into nonentities. They may be repositioned in your life, but never absent. The friends who I used to run and hide from, because they spoke truth, are the only ones I still communicate with. They are the ones that still influence my life and the woman I am becoming. Friends: thank you for amending my ways and yanking me towards the Cross when I least wanted it. Thanks for the time, love and most importantly, the foundation built on the Rock! My prayer would that be that I can do for others like you all have done for me. Be there beside someone and pray them through, and watch them come to Christ and then grow in Him. So thank you all for the greatest love ever... Sharing the love of our Savior!

Friday I had to work 6-close right? Closing is supposed to be 12 for the coffee bar. Ok, well around 12:45 I'm just about to mop and be done (everything else is cleaned up) and like 30 stupid people come in. I'm not saying their stupid bc they wanted coffee so late, but bc they really were. I was like "the espresso machine is already shut down, but I can get you anything else" and they kept asking for mochas and stuff. I was like gesh. So I broke down a made hot chocolate and then Robin came to help but only made it worse but after my telling him that the machine was closed, forgetting and ringing them up for everything. so I made their stupid drinks and was like "Ok its 1am robin, everything else is done, I'm going home" and left. haha.
I was supposed to close again tonight, but around 12, Curry called and was like "hey Robin forgot to schedule a midshifter, can you come in and not work tonight?" I was like "HECK YA" thinking that midshift is usually a dead shift which would have been really nice after last nights insane lines. Well, I couldnt have been more wrong. For some reason today was the busiest day ever. I was alone for 6 hours in the coffee house with lines stretching out the door for most of the time. Gesh it was stressful. But I got just about 100 bucks in tips in those two shifts which is quite nice. cant complain about that. So tonight I paid for Lindsey's movie because today while I was working she was standing there telling people how the line never stopped and how I was all alone, and so people tipped more. haha so great.
So while everyone went to Neon Moon tonight, I was exhausted from work. So Lindsey, Kdub, Jennifer and I went to see Shall We Dance?. It was such an amazing movie. I'd recommend it to everyone. Though it looks cheesy, and yeah there are a few cheesy parts, for the most part its really sweet. Richard Gere doesnt cheat on his wife and there is no sex. Imagine a movie w/out sex. Can you think of a single movie lately that you saw w/out sex? Yeah me either. Ok sleep well my friends

the rest of the story

ok, already wrote all about Sunday. Then Monday morning I woke up around 7 and had to go to the bathroom. Well when I got back into bed I kept hearing Keturah talk and couldnt decide if she was on the phone or talking in her sleep. So I stared at Leigh-Ann til she woke up and she couldnt tell either. So I went over to Keturah and started poking her saying SHUTUP SHUTUP haha. So she stoped talking and then we hear the clicking of the text messaging. Well Kristen yells "stop talking to rudy this early" haha Keturah was talking to her boyfriend at 7am! gesh
Monday was uneventful, just kinda drove home and chilled. Tuesday I got to babysit Jonas and Shae. They came here and were so cute. We played on the playground, went for a walk, and I taught Jonas to bang on the wall w/poster holders. It was great fun!
Wednesday I drove to Columbia and met Katie. It was so random. We met at a random exit off 77 and parked near the USC football stadium and ate dinner at some Lizard place that I cant remember. So after our HUGE dinner we went to the bathroom, for fear of having to stop alone when she drove the rest of the way to Paris Island to watch Brian graduate. Well part way down 26 she calls and is like "get off the road, get off the road" so I'm like ok. We ended up getting off at this way sketch exit that had an adult video store that was full of truckers. It was great fun, totally worth the drive. I miss her a lot. She helps loosen me up so that I can have real fun!
The rest of the week (today) has been uneventful. Studying and such. boo. ok well now that you are all updated on my life, its time to go relax.

Fall Break...

Hey, So this might have been the best weekend ever! For Fall break, Leigh-Ann, Keturah, Kristen and I decided to go to Disney. Saturday afternoon we piled into the Envoy and left. We finally pitstoped for gas/bathroom about 5 hours later when we were on I-4. Haha there was sex in the bathroon and Keturah left that stall for me. Gee Thanks. What a wonderful thing to walk through. :) We got to Orlando around 9ish, checked into the hotel and headed out for dinner. Had some IHOP then went into a tatoo shop and then into "everything 1.99 store" to browse around. We came back and went to bed I think. Then in the morning we departed for DISNEY!!!!!!!!!! Got there and it was so cute, Keturah had never been and all she wanted was to meet Aladin, but we couldnt find him, actually we didnt see any characters. But hey, its all ok bc there were virtually no lines and we rode EVERYTHING except for the choo choo mountain thingy bc it was broke and It's a small world bc it was closed. evil! Do you know how cool space mountain is? Oh and the space ranger game? Man, Leigh-Ann was driving the thing and shooting like a pro. One of our last rides was a ghost thing and it was "scary" but hey, we got taken over by a ghost. For our last ride, we rerode splash mountain, always a favorite. On the way out we went shopping and got mugs and mugs and oh did I mention mugs. Kristen bought the whole store out. It was so worth it all. For dinner we headed to Planet Hollywood in downtown Disney next to Paradise Island... ok there's so much more to write, but in the AM!

FALL BREAK!!!!

All Glory Honor and Praise...

This weekend was such an amazing worshipful time. There were about 60 people from CofC and the Citadel gathered together in Garden City to learn more about Jesus and to connect as a body of believers. Today was the best though. We had "church" this morning and instead of what we expect as church, we just had Bible verses all over the room and went around individually praying and such. Such an amazing time. Don't think I've ever spent that much time in continual prayer before. Ok, well due to the lack of sleep from the weekend, I'm gonna go to bed early. night world

2 Funny Stories

1. So my mom called last night and was like "I have something to tell you about your dog." That usually means Daisy hurt herself again, and the way mom said it made me think it was really bad. She goes on to say "well your father turned the shower on this afternoon and then went to grab something. While he was turned around he heard this weird noise" and this freaks me out because if Daisy hurts herself really badly (her back still) then I have to take her to be put to sleep)... "when your father turned around, Daisy had gotten into the shower" How cute is that!?!? My Daisy-May, who hates getting a bath, got herself into the shower to get all clean. That's a first, so cute!

2. Had a dream about Calvin College last night. Maybe it's because my bed was cold and oops, I knocked the blanket onto the floor and didn't realize it. But in the dream, it was snowing and we were in the KH lot (we being Rach (or maybe it was Dena, way to mix 2 schools I know), Kristin, Justin a tow truck and I). But I was only there visiting and we were coming back from somewhere but Rach decided to just get into this random truck and drive it. Only she put it in reverse insteada drive and hit the tow truck. So, we started running, and he was chasing us. But then Kristin was like "this is a dream, just make the tow truck go away" and it did, poofed away. Then I woke up. Is that weird to anyone else?!?! Ok just wondering

What a Monday. Studied all day yesterday for my DE test. Then after studying Rob and I decided to walk to the exam and study on the way . Once we got on campus we ran into Bonnie and Cate and they had gotten back their abstract exams. Ok, so we didn't want those back yet, at least I didnt. So went to DE, took the test, hard but ok. Got back the Abstract test... BAD! Then realized that oops, while studying for DE I had forgotten about the linear quiz. arg. Also, apparently I wa supposed to take Linear BEFORE DE, gesh, that woulda been great. Studied all afternoon, went to BCM, called Rob about our abstract hw due tomorrow, since he did so well on the test. So he called around 10ish and came over and we worked on our homework til 1130 I guess. Maybe we faked it, but hey, it's an answer, and that works. Also, in case anyone wants to get a great cd thats been out for a while... Moulin Rouge Soundtrack... go buy it. It's amazing and great to study by!

feeling slightly more normal today. Maybe it's because of this afternoon, which I have to say thank you for! It was really great to just feel like myself if only for an afternoon. But hopefully, it means it's the upward swing. I have to say that the way I have been feeling is an answer to prayer though. I prayed that Jesus would just break me down, and here I am, less than a full week later, much more broken. So though it sucks, it's a huge praise!!

What happened

When did this happen? I felt it coming on Saturday and thought it would go away, but it didn't. Great. Something to look forward to for tomorrow. Maybe this fun feeling can stay longer. You know it's real even if you can't define it if your mom calls and without saying anything she knows.
Please don't try to guess how I'm feeling. You can't understand unless you are Karen, or maybe Nan, maybe you can... I think you can you just don't like to express how it felt. It's hard to say that, but you all haven't really seen me like this, and you can't really sympathize unless you really have been here. The wall is sinking and I'm stuck in a cavorous hole with no way out. Where is the ladder out? You found it for me before... do you know where it is now? If you don't, can you just stay up top and keep talking me through? Don't let me go. I hate this.

FALLS APART...

These lyrics are by Sugar Ray. So kristin (if you read this... I hope you enjoy it). Today was a good day. Lots to do, but it was very much NOT focused on me, which is a great thing. Had class, babysat, studied, and then went outside with Leigh-Ann and then Lindsay and Nan came over, and we had out Wednesday night prayer. I really hope Lindsay decides to keep coming! Other than that, something just hasn't been right lately. Can't put a finger on it, but it's there just the same. It's like I've been pretending, or putting on a show w/my friends. Trying to be funny, and yeah it's so fun... but I can't be showy anymore. Somewhere in the past few weeks I lost myself and don't know where it went. When I'm with people, I can be that person, but when alone, I don't feel it anymore. So, I downloaded this song and it seems to sum up everything:

She falls apart by herself, No ones there to talk or understand

Feels sustained, dries here eyes

Finds herself, opens the door inside

People see right through you, Everyone who knew you well

Falls apart, might as well Day is long and nothing is wasteful

Runaway runaway runaway runaway...

All those words that hurt you, More than you would let it show

Comes apart, by yourself

All is well and everything is wasted

Runaway runaway runaway runaway

So that is basically it in a nutshell. It's only part of the song, but yeah, it's applicable. So here is the prayer: Daddy (name used by Nan that is awesome), I try to make my life my own, but it's yours. Take my mind and transform it, take my will and conform it to yours Lord. Everything should be for your glory. Father, this life is yours, you gave it to me and I give it back to you. Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Thank you father for breaking this pride that rises up so easily. If it will glorify you more, break me more Jesus. Break me to the point where I was last year where there was nothing but you! I raise my Ebenezer to you, because you are the Rock! Lord, it is not possible for me to break myself, so I am praying to you to break and humble me for your names sake. Thank you Lord.

So, another week has begun. Monday, went to some classes, and wondered where Jeanne (the latest hurricane they've predicted would hit us that didn't) was. Then Monday night I went to BCM, and it was really great. Stephen spoke for the first time. Afterwards, I was bored so Nan and I drove and sat at the battery and hung out. The waves were so big though that we kept getting splashed. However, these guys just pulled over and were like "is that your civic?" and i'm like "um yea" and they are like "is it for sale" and i'm like "it could be" and they said they race hatchbacks and need another one. So, if I make an offer then can pretty much guarantee it because it's in demand. Also, the reasons that I didn't want to sell it here are that it's a 5-speed w/no ac. But they want a 5-speed and ac would just slow them down. So it's perfect. Today is Tuesday and it was basically like any other, class, work, class, homework, sleeping during homework. However, Nan and I ran a little over 6 miles. We ran to the Citadel, got there, saw Scott (yeah! which was totally on accident) and "ran/walked" back. Later, Nan used my place to study, but I think she really just talked to Michael the whole time, which is cool, bc he is such a great guy. And I love how they are both going slowly with whatever is going on. Then we studied and such and went to MM to hear some music. Basically,

Weekend Excursions

Saturday: gesh, where is the time flying to? Saturday I slept in, then went to work from 12-6. It was so busy, but its cool cause I got over 40 bucks in tips, which is always a perk! :) Then Leigh-Ann came and we went shopping. On the way home we called Cassi and Nan and decided we were going to see WIMBELDON (Great movie!!!). So we picked up Nan and she did her fun techno dance moves in my apartment. Whoa, she learned a lot more than just WO AI NI and WEI (sp) in Tawian. But it's all good. So, after the movie, we went to George's, a sports bar in West Ashley, because it was Michael's 21st bday and Nan had to give him a card. Whoa, his roommate Scott... that's a wonderful vision to behold. And he was a funny guy too. Maybe we can convince him to come to church?!?! haha. Anyway, afterwards we (the girls) went and sat at the battery talking until like 1:30. good times.
Sunday: Got up after like 5 hours of sleep, never enough for me, and went to Sunday School. Then church, where Tyler finally showed up. The slacker overslept and missed Sunday School. Then we all went over to Judy's house for lunch. But... Nan had to go back downtown to get a form, so it was Michael driving w/Lauren and Tyler and I. I could get us to Sam Rittenburg and Michael could get us to the house from there, but that was no easy task. We probably made at least 3 u-turns. Oh well. It was worth it for the amazing pasta. It was also funny to listen to the knobs (plebe wanabees) talking about how easy it is. Came back, napped, ran in the rain along the battery. Did some hw and laundry, oh oh and homework. So basically it was an amazing weekend here in Charleston.
Also, if you could pray for my friends and I as we all are in the process of growing and struggling w/guys and such. Pray that we can just follow Jesus' will and continually seek Him out. That we will not loose focus of Christ and become solely focused on guys, and such :) This is such a tough thing for people our age, that we must make a conscious effort to search out God's will for our lives in this area, because He knows who that person is. As the sermon said today, "pray specifically" for things, and I'm adding, "pray specifically for this area"!!

Naptowner84: O:-) (the angel face on aim)
McElhaneySassy: LOL...thats just unbelievable christy

FRIDAY!!!
Went to class this morning, skipped Linear and Karen, Leigh-Ann and I watched Moulin Rouge. It was such a great movie. Then I worked, and as per usual, Nan, LA and Cassi came, only when I got off poor Cassi's car had been booted, so we all had to pay to unboot it.
I have to thank you (you know who you are) for listening tonight. I've been having a really hard time with something lately and didn't really even realize that it was my problem until tonight. I understand completely that Charleston, though my home, still has a lot of racial inequality. It's kind of hitting me lately how much of it there is. I didn't even notice it much last year, well I did, but not like recently. I grew up being taught that everyone was the same, and most people here just weren't raised like that. It's just a fact. My friend Shawn used to always say that he was black and I was white and we would joke about it a lot. So one day I put a black sheet of paper up against him and a white one up against me and was like, see neither of us match the sheets of paper. I guess that is just how my mind works. Yes, I do see the difference, but I don't think it necessarily matters so much. Maybe it's trite to say it's what's on the inside that matters, but isnt that true... at least to some extent? It's not like my endeavor here is to change the world, or even anyone. Just I guess what is happening is that remarks that seem racial leave a pungent taste in my mouth. I hear them, even if it was just a passing comment, it stays with me. I'm like "did they just say that?" and I know it's how people were raised here. So, yeah, it upsets me when people say things like that, a lot, but I also know that to them it's normal. But does that make it right? It doesn't mean I love anyone less, it's just difficult for me to hear it and not be shocked. Guess I'm just a product of my society! haha jk jk whoa, that was a deep entry, but as Nan and Leigh-Ann always say "WO AI NI"

Great Day

Today was a really good day. Went to anthropology, which is becoming really interesting, then tutored a guy in stats for an hour and a 1/2, then went to abstract math. But that was just normal. Then I proceeded to go to marion square and lay out for 2 hours (maybe that will help my floundering tan!) . However, when leaving, my bike tired had popped so I had to go get it replaced and walk home to get money! Refixed the pedal on my car, did homework and decided to run. Ran all the way to the end of the battery and back, it was like a 30 min run which felt really good. Came back, ate dinner, tried some more hw and then read Karen's livejournal. Somehow I felt the need to call her, and we ended up at the battery talking for hours. It felt really great. It's almost as if life here is so great, but she was missing from it. It didn't seems right w/out her. And though I wouldnt trade my new friends for anything because I LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANYTHING, it's really great to have her too! And yea for skipping Linear Algebra to go to the beach tomorrow. Ok time for sleep!

Whoa, 3 entries in 1 day, what is going on? But I just have a lot to say and a lot on my mind today. But I just wanted to mention how amazing my friends are here. It is such a wonderful gift from my Lord to have friends that are earnestly seeking after Him as well. Though we all struggle w/school and life and boys and everything else, and we all want to stray, it's awesome to know that someone is there praying for you and loving you with the heart of Christ. Nan had the idea that we all get together once a week to pray together, and I really hope we pray like we did that one night all outloud together. It was the coolest thing ever. How many people are priviledged enough to be sitting in a room, all talking to Jesus Christ outloud, at the same time? Nan suggested it bc it's what she did in Tawain, and if that was the only thing she learned there, which it isn't, then just that to me was worth her trip! :)
Speaking of prayer: I've been trying to study Judges. You know how we all go through periods of stronger faith than others? Of seaking but not knowing what to do? I think that's what this book is all about. When trials are great, or they are being persecuted they cry out "Father save us from this oppression", but when life is good, they are sustaining themselves (which we all want to be self-sufficient) they go back to their Ashera poles and marrying into the other tribes. I don't know about you, but I definitely go back and forth between praising my Savior and worshiping my "Ashera" poles, and it's so horrible. So, should I really want to be self-sufficient? That answer has become really clear... NO! Not only do I need to rely more and trust more in Jesus and study His Word more, but I need people to keep me accountable. So praise to the Lord for providing everything that I didn't think I needed to rely on Him!

For Karen:

In meeting again after a separation, acquaintances ask after our outward life, friends after our inner life.

- Marie Von Ebner-Eschenbach

Your friendship meant and still means so much to me. Without you, I would not be here still. Though I love everyone here so much, it seems different with you. Do you feel that way too sometimes? We don't necessarily know the current events of eachothers lives at any given moment, but you know me, and I know you. Under the facades and falsities of life, the core...! That's such a cool thing. I guess that is where the quote is applicable. You shared the Cameroon part of yourself w/me, and I love being the one who knows your stories and can picture your life there, even if you did spend a lot of time naked there! (ack) And yes being back in the "saddle" is nice. So, thats the blog for you!!

For Karen:

Favorite Christian Praise Song.

So, yeah I know this is from middle school, but it's been stuck in my head all day. I've been trying to download it, and can't find it anywhere. so here it is, SHOUT OUT THE OO OO's!!

Praise The Lord (Blessed Be)

Praise the Lord, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. (echo)
His steadfast love endures forever, and he is good.
We will tell the mighty deeds of the Lord,
And show forth all of His praise, Allelujah!

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel
From everlasting to everlasting...
Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel
From everlasting to everlasting!

Let all God's people say Amen ... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen, OH praise the Lord!

OOH OOOH

OOH OOOH

Gather us, O Lord our God, From among the nations (echo)

Deliver us and save us, O God, God of our salvation (echo)

So that we may give thanks to Thy holy name

And glory in Thy praise Alleluia!

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel

From everlasting to everlasting

Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel

From everlasting to everlasting!

Let all God's people say Amen... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen... AMEN!

Let all God's people say Amen, OOO praise the Lord!

OOH OOOH

OOH OOH
OOOOOOOOH

Yet another weekend is over... I spent friday working from 6-midnight. Nan, as per usual came in and brought people in w/her. Then we got into my car, w/Antonio (maybe) and Michael and had to race to get them back to the Citadel by 1. Once we got them there, we were driving down Calhoun towards 17 and called Leigh-Ann who was w/Suzy. We were like "follow us to get ice cream, we're waiting in the construction area for you" haha bad idea. The next thing I know, Nan is like "theres a man next to us" and there really was. A creapy sketchy man was walking right next to my car, so I gunned it trying to get away, only there was a car next to us and we couldnt go, it was so funny, maybe ya had to be there. Then we couldnt find any ice cream places open at 1am, go figure, so we went to the 24 hour Kripsy Kreme drive thru, and you know what, we drove around it 5X's and no one would give us a stupid dounut. Saturday I worked from 12-6, got off, went w/Nan to her Sunday School teachers house (oh and Lucy came!!!!) to watch a movie. Got there, watched like 6 Citadel guys try to move a sofa (yeah they were struggling) and then we "watched" Hidalgo... worst movie ever. Afterwards we went to Waterfront part and talked, and Leigh-Ann, Cassi and Suzy and her "boy" joined us, and after 12 the police came and told us and everyone else there that the park was closed, so we left. Sunday went to church at Ashley River, had some Red Lobster, did homework in the park outside my apartment w/LA, watched some Titanic on tv, drove to nowhere w/Nan and LA. Fun, fast weekend. Not so ready for classes to start, but on well. It's 11:15 and since I've only been getting like 6 hours of sleep this weekend as compared to my normal 8-10 (yes, I do love to sleep) its time to go crash! night world

Unexpected times...

I'm not really sure what's been going on in my head lately. I took a risk, a risk that has been coming forever, and apparently it isn't going to work out how I had envisioned. However, that isn't killing me. Though I really wanted it, it is really amazing to just have verbalized how I feel, and now, since it isn't returned I guess it really is time to move on. Though it's a weird sensation, it's good to move beyond. You said you were willing to give it a shot, maybe you were just appeasing me, who knows. But I am taking the fact that you cant pin down a time or take the effort to talk to me as your not wanting this to happen, and if that's wrong, at this point you will need to flat out tell me. I will not sit and wait for you to make up your mind forever. Now or never, is what I said and it's what I meant. So I gues you'd rather have never. Honesty is so much better than trying to "save" someone.

This is a random Bbmak song, yeah I know they're from back in the day, but what can ya do?

I want to show you even though there are no guarantees

Just let me hold you love can do most anything

If you just believe

It can take you to the highest high

Make you sacrifice it all. Love is unpredictable

It can change your life forever or it may never hear your call

Love is unpredictable

We don't need to justify, we don't need to wait

All will be revealed to us in time

And if you intellectualize the meaning of this fate

You may never know what we could find

Don't keep me waiting Don't you keep me hanging on the line

I'm only saying You won't know what love can do, if you never try

So yeah, thats part of the song. Love is unpredictable, yes I think that resonates w/me right now. Who would have though I could be bold like that? It's terrifying to put yourself out, but I think it's worth it, worth all of it.

So last night, haha after BCM Leigh-Ann, Nan and I went to sonic... but my drink wouldnt cooperate. Stupid rootbeer float wouldnt stay in the cup, but rather kept (and I mean more than once) spilling all over my jeans. Actually it was really funny, but now my jeans are all sticky.

ps- brice, I am mentioning you in here, like you say I never do, so now you cant say that I dont mention you.

Cold n Wet in the library

Hey, So it decided so it decided to monsoon in Charleston again. However, this time it was when I had to go to class. Woke up, still feeling sick right... Well my weatherbug said it was going to be about 75 out with 20-30mph winds gusting around 40mph. What the heck, didnt the hurricane miss us? So off I go, w/my lil navy warm up jacket, a backpack and a bicycle drudging through the flooded Charleston streets. I always laugh at people who get splashed on, bc sometimes its funny, if the person is wearing stilettos and a mini skirt w/a tiny white shirt while its pouring down rain. However, no only were the streets flooded but I got puddled a few times, and 1 car even puddled me 2x's. arg. Luckily I dont have much homework and can sit and watch a movie and curl up w/a blanket and maybe some hot chocolate. Ok must stop writing like that, bc it's making me want it really bad. time for my last class...

Even though I had to work Fri and Sat 6-Midnight, this has been a really great weekend. Actually, its been a really great week. Friday: Had some classes, finally got to sit down with Karen. I dono what she thinks, but I thought it went so well. Just seemed normal. Hanging out w/the Karen that I love, and yes I do still love you Karen. It just calmed me and from the beginning seemed simple despite everything. Praise God that He could just bring such peace to that relationship! Then I worked and all my friends came to chill. However, Nan and Leigh-Ann stayed til we closed and went to sonic. Then we decided to have a sleep over (what a 4th grade term) but after LA had a hard convo w/Shrek Nan had us pray like she did in Taiwan. The three of us all prayed at one time, so it wasnt hard to pray out loud. It was really cool to be sitting in a room w/some of my best friends just Praising God and talking to Him together. Then everyone came down here and we went to bed around 3:30 after LA scared Nan while she was looking for Vick's Vapor Rub and Nan fell into the tub. Saturday: We woke up and I made pancakes, then we picked up Dena and went to the beach. The waves were huge because of the Hurricane in FL and the currents very dangerous. Well, we were trying to boogie board and avoid the waves, but LA missed and her legs and arms are all cut up. She looks like she got amazing Surfing wounds, or at least thats the story we're all sticking too!
Ok well it's 1AM, and church is in the AM, so I should prolly sleep soon... Stay up talking to Keith or go to bed? I dono...

Today has been a really strange day.
1. Got a call this morning from the Florist and guess what? Keith sent me flowers. How sweet is that? Yeah, it was so fun. All day in class, I kept thinking that flowers were coming, and they are really pretty. What a thoughtful guy. It's a gesture that most guys wouldnt think of doing.

2. I was at waterfront, studying and this guy sits next to me and is like "do you have a boyfriend?" and I'm like "yes" and he just sits and keeps talking to me for like 30 min, and is like "do you have single friends?" and again I was like "yes" and so I'm going back to the park tomorrow w/my single friends for him. haha

yeah, those were the events that happened today that seem kinda unusual. Yeah. Ok maybe I should try to do homework.
Ok well, now that my homework is done... Tomorrow I meet w/Karen E. And for all you that know that situation, I'm very excited. It's a cool place to be in, bc all that anger of last semester and all that hurt, its gone. And that has to be a God-thing, bc no way I could just not be angry anymore, its not me. Surprisingly not worried at it at all. She said she has stuff she needs to say or something, which is fine, bc I'm not gonna get upset. Just pray about it ahead of time, and see what happens. At the very least, maybe it will help her heal if she's not there yet. And I'm proud of her for doing this. She never has sticken me as someone who can deal w/confrontation straight on (and thats not a put down, it's just how it is) and I'm glad she's finally doing that. Not that tomorrow will be confrontational, but rather that maybe, just maybe we can get back a piece of what we had.

Something More (Augustine's Confession) By Switchfoot

I've been really complacent lately. Not really following Jesus, reading the Word, or having passion about anything that I know I should be longing and striving for. So, I decided to play switchfoot the other day, and this song resonated within me. It's St. Augustine's Confession, but I want it to be my confession:

Augustine just woke up with a broken heart

All this time he's never been awake before

At 31 his whole world is a question mark

All this time he's never been awake before

Watching dreams that he once had feed the flame inside his head

In a quiet desperation of the emptiness He says:

Chorus: "Theres gotta be something more

Than what I'm living for. I'm crying out to you" (2x)

Augustine, All his fears keeping falling out

All this time he's never been awake before

Finding out his old dreams aren't panning out

All this time he's never been awake before

But he's mad to be alive and he's dying to be met

In a quiet desperation of the emptiness He says:

Chorus

Something more

Hey, I give it all away

Nothing I was holding back remains

Hey, I give it all away

Looking for the grace of God today

Insanity

Whoa, it's Semptember 1 already! So, haha I slept through my first day of math lab tutoring. Oops. Oh well, what are ya gonna do. Let's see... My classes are going well. Abstract math is so well, abstract, I am not sure whats going on already! :) Well, it was fine until yesterday. We had a tropical storm on Sunday (Gaston) and Nan put this up, so I think everyone needs to read it: Fun things to do when a hurricane comes:

1. Go to the beach with Christy and Leigh-Ann at 1 AM... an hour before it hits land and becomes a big threat.

2. At 11:00, get in Leigh-Ann's SUV with her and Christy, and go in search of an open fast food restaurant. (Knocking on the drive-thru windows don't help!)

3. Go Puddling... lol...

4. Try to find every flooded street in Downtown Charleston and drive over bridges...

5. Make a pact to go to Pawley's Island when the next hurricane comes!

And apparently another BIG ONE is coming this weekend. Frances. They say its a category 4, almost a 5, and should make land around FL/GA which means we'll get big winds too. School is even thinking about cancelling for Monday! YEAH! So the evactuation plans... haha go to the beach and watch it roll up, then get out. It has been the rainiest few days here in Charleston. Whats going on? I've basically been doing nothing for a lil bit now. so maybe I should amend that. ok, have a good day whoever is reading this.

Ok so i wrote the whole thing about what I've been upto lately w/classes and such but blogger deleted it somehow. so any questions, ask! :)

It's been a week since I last wrote, so maybe it's time to write. My time at home in Annapolis is quickly drawing to a close. Saying goodbye to friends again, man it sucks. Katie, I hate going months on end w/out hanging out w/you like we do all summer! Yeah for Brian's graduation and your coming to stay at my place, btw thanks for inviting yourself. It's crazy how completely comfortable I can be around you! Thanks for all the awesome times and all those coming still! It's almost Thursday. I can't believe it. Leaving home on Saturday again, another year. Where did the summer go? I swear I just drove home from SC after the year ended. Oh well. My puppies won't be so close... and I do love them so. And classes, can I tell you how much I am NOT looking forward to 3 math classes, a science and anthropology? Oh yes, HERE I COME! Ok well time to go, dad just got home!

Things that should be said more...

I know you read this, so this is for you. I'm still not sure how it happened, but it did and it's really great. I was hesitant at first, but you weren't. You make me laugh and yet didn't laugh at me when I ran into the car's rearview mirror today while walking. I hadn't even thought this was a possibility, but under that friendship is something awesome. I'm not one who easily expresses myself, but just wanted to take a moment to thank you for this summer. It's been filled w/car rides through back neighborhoods and neighborhoods w/unexpected speed humps, movies, dinners and walks through the woods and the most beautiful pier ever. And maybe the best part of it all, is that it's simple. Does it feel simple to you? Being around you is fun and easy. Hey, yawning happens! So, I haven't told you enough how great you are and how I'm looking forward to the roadtrips and hanging out w/our "interesting" friends from school. Yeah, we both know the person from your school and the one from mine that I'm talking about. :) So, Thank you.
Ps- have words become superfluous yet? Because I'm thinking maybe so :)

SEETHER LYRICS "broken"

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome & I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open

And I don’t feel like I am strong enough

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome

And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away'

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away You don't feel me here anymore

Well hello,
I'm listening to Sublime right now, and its making me happy. Thanks Keith. Do you like the Ben Folds mix?!? So, it's been a good week. Working at AACS, standing on 12ft ladders w/20 ft extensions on the paint rollers! Good times in the gym on friday! Friday, Kristi K and I hung out and then Kate W showed up. So fun. Had a "run in" w/my next door neighbor about her stupid party and not letting me park my car anywhere near home. Oh well. Then saturday was Katie's 20th bday. Interesting party in the cold, but good memories remembered. Oh Katie and your amazing ability to fall over. Today, I napped, as per usual. Jen, the shirt you gave me, its so great. I really love it. Then Keith came home and came over and we had icecream (homemade) w/my parents and played checkers... so woulda won that last game had you not cheated and jumped all my pieces :) I can't believe you're leaving for school Friday. It seems like we just started having fun you know? Ok, cya

Vacation To Charleston!

Been home from Charleston for about 2.5 hours now. What an awesome trip. Katie and I drove down on Thursday and then went to Kickin Chicken and Sonic... yum. Then, we packed up some of my apartment. Friday, we went to the beach w/Leigh-Ann where the waves were at least 7 ft. no joke! Friday night, hmm, what did we do? I think we drove around for boxes, and I even climbed into a dumpester to grab some! Saturday was spent moving and then Katie and I were out of it, we just laid on the floor. Apparently we called manda, and neither of us remember much of that convo! :) Then saturday night, my parents took us to dinner at California Dreamin where we ate outside, so nice! Sunday, we got Bojangles before church, then I think we walked all over town, bought this awesome cd stand thats not suitable for tvs but has my tv on it anyway and watched my parents hang curtains. Monday... did we shop katie? Why cant I remember!? haha. Tuesday, we went to the less wavy end of Folly bc I killed my knee and almost died being caught in a rip-tide and katie fell into a big hole in the water :( ! (no for real!!!) Also, we shopped, and K got this awesome Southern Yankee Cowgirl hat, as she calls it! However, Leigh-Ann and I rented a jet-ski near the pier at Folly and it was so fun. Just as we got away from the shore, we flipped! Haha, then we road for like 15 min, almost dying every 2 seconds bc i was driving and couldnt see. But, we almost flipped again and yelled "we're gonna flip" and so Leigh-Ann just jumped off, pulling me with her. Yet, the jet-ski didnt flip at all. Oh gesh! Well, thats it kinda. YEAH! ps- the apartment is awesome, come visit!!!

Tomorrow morning I leave for Charleston to move to Sergeant Jasper... 8A!  However, I'm so apprehensive.  Daisy has not really improved.  Yeah she walks a little, but she falls more often than not.  She's got doggy depression.  Right now she's laying down looking up at me and her hind legs are shaking.  I love her more than anything in life.  She's my Daisy-Mae, my Beagle!  We've been close for 10 years.  Even though she's crazy scared of new people, she trusts me to make things better, she's crafty and smart.  I want to make it all better for her.  Take away her hurt, but I want her to get better.  Because she's 11, we cant opperate on her to fix it, we just have to pray that she improves.  However, if she doesn't mom said it's my decision to put her to sleep and that it's not fair to have her live like this if she doesn't improve.  How can I make a choice like that?  In spite of my love, it's not fair for her to be like this.  When that time comes, which it will eventually, even if its not from this, I don't know how I will handle it.  Daisy is my true friend even if she's just a dog... she's this woman's best friend!  Daisy-Mae, I love you!!

So, a few stressful things have happened recently.  My grandfather went into the hospital Thursday and was released today.  However, they kept giving him morphine which made him say some crazy things about cages and such.  It freaked me out to a degree.  As of today, I am the saddest girl though.  My beagle (Daisy, my favorite dog!) hurt herself getting out of my car yesterday when we got back from the vet.  Well, she was walking badly, then stopped waling all together.  So, my parents post-poned their trip to SC today and took her to the vet only to discover that one of her vertebrae is ruptured or something, so they synapse from her brain telling her hind-legs to move are connecting.  Hopefully she will improve this week, as she seems to be slowly doing.  If her disk slips more though, she will become paralyzed and then have to be put to sleep bc they vet won't operate on a dog that's 11 years old.  :( 
On a better note...  My job is so amazing.  Friday we had nothing to do, so we all played hangman and napped (ok, I napped while everyone else watched the paint dry!).  Monday, we had to spray 15 cans of Kilz (primer) on the walls of a non-ventilated hallway in the Lower School and everyone go really high.  After work was over, our noses were filled w/the white stuff (yuck) and there were 20 min breathing breaks every 5 min to allow us to take full-sized breaths.  Thursday, Katie and I are driving down to Charleston to move me into Sergeant Jasper and to go to the beach of course!  Yeah!  Also, the Bourne Supremacy, yeah its a good movie except for the camera shaking!  I must admit it was really fun to get Keith to buy tickets to another movie and sneak into the Bourne Supremacy bc it was sold out.  BTW- he was the only person I know who understood Big Fish from the beginning... 3 cool points for you for that!  Maybe that's enough of an update for now. 

Week in review

Whoa, I'm so confused, BLOGGER seems to have updated itself and now I can type in colors and new fonts!  Way cool!  Ok, so I know you all are so excited to hear about my week...

Last week I started working at AACS.  Though it could have been really weird to be back there for long periods of time, it has actually turned out really amazingly.  A bunch of people I know are there and I get to catch up w/them daily.  Painting is actually fun!  Who knew!?!?  Then Monday, as a group, we all went to see Dodgeball and Keith came along.  Then Wednesday, I had to lock myself in to study for the CALC 3 final exam.  Well, sweetest thing ever, Keith surprised me with a GIANT icecream sandwich, which he called Jen to find out that I'd like!  Major Props there!  Test went well!  Then Friday was "meet the family night"  and I dono what you think Keith, but I hope it went well!  I def liked the flowers and the walk at the club and to the pier, even if the lightening bug freaked me out like none-other.  Since then, I've just kinda been around.  Chilaxing.  Ok, time to go, not much eventful happened this week apparently.  Talk to ya'll later

I had the greatest weekend! Kristi and Leigh-Ann drove all the way up to Naptown to chill w/me! So cool of them. They got here on Thursday and we meet Katie to go mid-hunting and then Keith joined us downtown for icecream. It was so amazing to have them here. Friday we went to DC and got so lost, but we got stopped on the side of the road by what we thought was the President and his men (sorry, Katie said he was in PA!). Kristi really wanted to go to the museums so we did that and drove by the Lincoln Memorial quite a few times. Friday night we went to Cantlers where Katie and I ate a dozen delicious crabs... and Kristi and Leigh-Ann ordered hamburgers. Who gets hamburgers at Cantlers. gesh a whip! However, Kristi did try a few claws and managed to hit the lady behind her w/the crab claw. So funny, but so proud of her for trying! Then we got some good ol' Ritas! SO YUMMY!!!! Saturday we had lunch at Chick & Ruths and then came home and relaxed. Then at night, we picked up Keith and went to Bmore. Kristi informed me that Bmore is the location of the Boston Tea Party and the Chicago Fire... guess I learn something new everyday! Haha that was so funny. Had some dinner at Hard Rock and then listened to the band in the Harbour. It was such a great day. Actually, it was a great weekend. Loved seeing my friends and showing them my life here. Thanks guy for driving all the way up here and enduring the traffic on the way home. Cya soon!!!

It's been a crazy few days. I've been so busy, but it's all worth it! First, Forth of July was the single greatest day ever. So, Katie and I went downtown to watch the fireworks. While we were sitting outside of Phillips Jen calls. So we go meet her and some others bc they are downtown too. Everyone went onto the Naval Academy to watch the fireworks. Well Jon had saved us the best seats ever. They were on the turf field. So, there we were, like 5 feet from the entire new class of Midshipmen. We saw some that I knew and this guy, Matt, that Katie loves. It was so much fun. Dono whether I watched the fireworks or the mids more! :) haha
So, we have this new thing to do on Thursdays. Last week, Katie, mom and I went to dinner at El Torro Bravo and then Katie and I went to the Officer club at the academy to go "mid hunting." Only when we got there, there were no mids around so we walked FOREVER around the base.
Ok, Tomorrow will be the best day ever. 1) It's my last day of work at Nordstrom!!!! 2) Kristi and Leigh-Ann are coming!!!!
Maybe thats enough rambling for now. but til next time...

HAPPY FORTH OF JULY!!!

Going over to Katie's in a bit for her party. Quit Nordstrom today. 4 More days, and its over! Then I get to paint or whatever needs to be done around AACS! So the calc test went very badly, but on the plus side, Kristi and Leigh-Ann are coming Thursday! Heck ya. OK time to go

Well, Tomorrow is Calc 3 Test 3. I feel incredibly unsure of this one. But I put in about 3.5 hours today and have been studying for a few days now. Guess it's just gonna happen tomorrow then. But I got a fun suprise study aid today! Thanks for the chocolates Keith!
Unsure of how to act, sorry about that. Trying to act normal, but its new territory. Tomorrow will be fun. Test, then sleeping by the pool all day. Yup thats all folks

GREATEST NEWS 2X's!
1. My Nana finally came home from the hospital today. Pray that she doesn't try to push herself too much and that her healing continues to go smoothly. Also, pray that my grandfather doesn't drive her crazy, bc I think he might! :)
2. Leigh-Ann and Kristi are coming to visit! July 8-12 (yes its during the camping trip, but arg) I'm so excited to have my great Charleston friends come up to create havoc on Naptown.

So, I think I'm gonna give my notice at Nordstrom this week. I hate it, and it's too much. Maybe a relaxing, boring summer is in need! Heck yeah. Def need more time to chill w/my friends up here. Too maybe people I want to be with, but no time. I hate not having time for fun, its summer vacation, one of the last (~tear~) and so it MUST be taken advantage of.

Great line from the original Shrek!
Lord Farquaad: Now, tell me! Who's hiding them?!
Gingerbread Man: Okay, I'll tell you. Do you know the Muffin Man?
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: Yes, I know the Muffin Man, who lives on Drury Lane?
Gingerbread Man: Well, she's married to the Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man!
Lord Farquaad: She's married to the Muffin Man.

Great line from the original Shrek!
Lord Farquaad: Now, tell me! Who's hiding them?!
Gingerbread Man: Okay, I'll tell you. Do you know the Muffin Man?
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: Yes, I know the Muffin Man, who lives on Drury Lane?
Gingerbread Man: Well, she's married to the Muffin Man.
Lord Farquaad: The Muffin Man?
Gingerbread Man: The Muffin Man!
Lord Farquaad: She's married to the Muffin Man.